I had wanted to be like so many people,
To just have something they have but I didn’t,
I wished and wished,
Not until when I found out that,
The grass may be greener on the other side’
But the water bills are higher too,
And they probably have more of it to mow.
I wanted to be like Jane,
She had a nice dentition,
She had a very lovely smile,
And everyone seemed to love her,
And my set of teeth were so unarranged I even used braces,
I wished and wished to have a nice dentition as hers,
I later got to know that she sometimes has a very serious tooth-ache,
Then I gave thanks to GOD that I had a dentition without any form of toothache.
I wanted to be like Camilla,
She had all the best clothes, shoes and nice jewelries,
She looked so gorgeous in every outfit she wore and was popular,
And everyone seemed to liked to associate with her,
And my clothes were not as beautiful as hers,
I wished and wished to have the best of clothes as hers,
If I could have those kinds of nice things I thought!
I later got to know that she had a lot of problems with her character,
Her parents were very rich but they were divorced and this affected her too,
Then I gave thanks to GOD that my parents were still together and I had nice clothes too and a good character.
I wanted to be like Sandra,
She had the kind of lips to admire,
She looked so cute with those lips so pink and silky,
And everyone seemed to admire her,
And my lips were so big and cranky,
I wished and wished to have lips as hers,
Then I got to know that she had a funny way of speech,
Then I gave thanks to GOD that though my lips were cranky,
I have a very nice kind of speech.
I wanted to be like Theresa,
She could get along so well with others,
She was so friendly with people,
And everyone seemed to love her,
And here I was, the very unsocial type,
I wished and wished if I could be that friendly,
If I could be that social I thought!
Then I got to know that she wasn’t as friendly as I thought, people just put up with her,
Then I gave thanks to GOD for the few friends I had who are always there for me and not just trying to put up with me.
I wanted to be like Anita,
She had very hot legs,
She wore short clothes to reveal her hot legs,
Her legs were so lovely,
And here I was I had a K-leg,
I wished and wished if only I can have her kind of legs,
Then I discovered that she sometimes has rheumatism in her legs,
Then I thanked GOD for my K-leg that I don’t have rheumatism.
I wanted to be like Nancy,
She had a very nice shape,
She just won an award in the Miss Shape contest,
Her clothes just fitted her,
And here I was so fat and shapeless,
I wished and wished if I could have such a lovely shape,
Then I discovered that she had so much spots on her body,
Then I thanked that though I might not have a lovely shape, I have a spotless, smooth and silky body.
I wanted to be like Anne,
She was a very rich girl,
She bought so many nice things with her money,
And earned a high reputation for that,
And me a poor little girl with little money,
I wished and wished if only I had more money I thought!
Then I got to know that she was a spoilt child who doesn’t how to manage money well and she was even a kleptomaniac,
Then I thanked GOD for the little money I had and for giving me the grace not to steal.
All I wanted was just to be like Jane, Anne or any other. Then I learnt that nobody can have it all together as I usually think. Our contentment in Christ is what can help us in situations like this. I might want to be like anyone else but I should know that if I am like them I will not only get the good parts but the bad parts also.
Each and every one of us is all on different classes; nobody can match up to us in our class. It’s not worth trying to match up to another person’s class,
I am the best me in existence.
I found out that until I get down accepting the way GOD created me, then would I become happier and better than I am,
As Zig Ziglar once said ’’you will make a lousy anybody else, you are the best you in existence. You are the only one who can use your ability. It is an awesome responsibility’’.
2 Corinthians 10:12- “For we dare not make ourselves of the number, or compare ourselves with some that commend themselves; but they measuring themselves by themselves, and comparing themselves among themselves are not wise.
Everything about me is a reflection of what I think to be. What I think to be is what determines how I believe others will see me. My self worth should not be measured by my physical appearance, intelligence, abilities or achievements. I have come to find out that comparing our weaknesses to others’ strengths is not a good footing.
My thoughts are mirror reflections of what the world will see and take me as. Until I begin to see myself as that beautiful girl who has it all together, the nice shape, the lovely lips, the best dressed etc then will the world take me as one. The bible says that I am wonderfully and beautifully made. What matters most is that this is the way GOD sees me and nothing else matters.
In conclusion, if I base my self esteem on what GOD says I am then would I have a very high self esteem. I will not stop asking myself the question ‘’if who I am is what I have then when what I have is lost, who am I? The bottom line is this: if Jesus Christ thought I was worth dying for then there is no reason to think less of myself. The best thing to go through in life is to have a solid and sound self esteem based on Jesus Christ; to have confidence and satisfaction in oneself.