Many of us agonize over those we love in prayer. Family members who do not truly know the Lord brings pain and anguish of soul/mind constantly for those of us who have a personal relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ. I personally have prayed and prayed for members of my family to truly be born again. I want them to know the Lord Jesus and walk in His ways and obey His Word. The harder I pray the harder the devil attacks and tries to keep them from the truth (the simplicity of the gospel). Many of my family members are baptized and belong to a church. However, I do not see that love for Christ manifested in their lives every day. Of course I know I can't see into their hearts, only the Lord Jesus can do that.
2 Timothy 2:19 But the firm foundation of (laid by) God stands, sure and unshaken, bearing this seal (inscription): The Lord knows those who are His, and, Let everyone who names [himself by] the name of the Lord give up all iniquity and stand aloof from it. (Quick Amplified Bible)
This verse gives me comfort while at the same time grief, because the Apostle Paul says that all who name or claim Christ should depart from iniquity, lawlessness, wickedness, and sin. This troubles me because I believe many in my family are living in continual rebellion to the Lord Jesus Christ. I believe a curse of sexual immorality was let into our family long ago and is afflicting many in every generation. Many don't want to believe that it is a curse and want to believe that it is the result of DNA or Genetics. This is the subtly of the devil to have many people believe a lie and thereby they will live in that lie. The devil is the Father of all lies.
When the Apostles could not heal a man's son, Christ said it was because of their little faith. The Lord Jesus told us that some kind only come out by fasting and prayer. The Bible says faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God. I know the Lord loves me, but I had it out with the Lord a couple of days ago. I said to Him “Lord why am I praying for my family when they appear to go deeper and deeper into their sexual immorality.” “Lord, Why will you not hear my constant cries for their deliverance?” I became anguished as Moses did in Numbers 11:10-15. To put it plainly I was angry and disillusioned with the Lord.
His word says that all who practice sexual immorality will not inherent His Kingdom. I can't understand why He will not hear my supplications and petitions and remove these desires from their hearts. I know I must be doing something wrong and I constantly ask the Lord to search me and try and test me. If He finds any iniquity regarded in my heart to lead me in the way of everlasting. I don't want anything to keep my most important prayer from being answered. This answered prayer is more important to me than silver, gold, or even my life. I don't know if I'm supposed to pray once and then thank my Heavenly Father for their deliverance. Or if I'm to come before Him daily as Christ taught in the parable of the persistent widow and as He Himself did in Gethsemane. I have done both and continue to do all in agonizing prayer for their deliverance.
However, the Apostle Paul tells me in the following verses: Philippians 4:6-7 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. (KJV) I do have His peace and I thank Him daily for that fact. However, I'm finally resting on these words from the Apostle Peter: 1 Peter 5:6-7 Therefore humble yourselves [demote, lower yourselves in your own estimation] under the mighty hand of God, that in due time He may exalt you, Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully. (Quick Amplified Bible) May all ye saints of God pray for me as I will for you in these last days.
Sincerely in Christ,
Clifford D. Tate, Sr.
Author, Silent Assassins of the Soul (not yet published; coming soon)