I've written here on more than one occasion of my frustration at the work I've been doing. It actually wasn't the work. I liked the work. I loved the regulars. I had a few close friends there. It was the atmosphere, the subtle hostility, the comments about faith and God, and the inability to just be decently and fairly treated. After careful consideration, and putting all fear aside, I finally did something about it. I took a deep breath and dived into the unknown.
I quit the job. I already miss some of the people I left behind. But I'm not sorry, not even the tiniest little bit, that I left.
You know the feeling. We all have it. It's the tiny voice that whispers, "I can do better than this. I deserve more than this". But then that other little voice begins to whisper in your other ear, "Why bother? You already know this job. You already know these people. You, at the very least, know what to expect every day when you come to work".
These two opposing voices battle things out for a while. And you're faced with a decision, one you're afraid to make, yet one that must be made.
And then something happens that puts everything into focus and you know exactly what you're supposed to do, what you need to do. If you're like me, you close your eyes, say a prayer, call forth the Nike commercial (Just Do It!), and you jump.
I didn't have a plan in place when I quit. I just knew the time had come. It's become clear to me since, that it was the absolutely right decision to make.
So now, I am training in a new job. It's frightening because I don't know the job very well. But it's exciting too because I know what I will be doing, and I feel sure I can do it well.
Isn't all of life just like this? Decisions, decisions, decisions. We're faced with a multitude of possibilities every day. Some are clear. Some are not.
But isn't it exciting, this ability to make choices and decisions in regards to our lives? For the Christian, decisions are not made alone. But sometimes through the fog of our indecision, we can see the Light that, while He may not speak directly to us, nudges us into place, like a mother cat nudging her kittens. "Here, move here. Do this".
It's scary trying new things. It's very scary to step out of a place of comfort, even if it's only comfortable because it's familiar. It's a little terrifying (okay, a lot) to step out there when you have no idea where you'll wind up, when you just fly blindly into the unknown.
But don't we all owe it to ourselves, our lives, and Our Heavenly Father to push ourselves to be the best we can be while we're here? Isn't that the purpose of living?
In hopes of achieving my ultimate goal, which is to please God and join Him in eternity, I will continue to press on in achieving my personal best here on earth, even when it's scary, even when I don't know exactly where I'm headed. For I am never alone and I am never really flying blind.
He goes with me.
God goes with you too. Step outside of yourself and see where you're headed. If what you see displeases you, you know you can always change course, don't you?
You took the bold step. I was in a similar situation where I was being mistreated in a job and degraded. I was afraid to leave before I could get another job. I ended up in hospital with high blood pressure and severe trauma that took time to heal. Thanks for sharing this to let others know we must seek other roads in life. Blessings in your new job.