DELIVER ME FROM SEXUAL TEMPTATIONS!
(An excerpt from my journal written on Sunday,11th June 1995 in Kano)
By Felix Abrahams Obi
Hi friend, in keeping with my plan to share entries to my devotional journals, I have lifted up this piece which I had written during my undergraduate university days in Kano; months after I’d given my life to Christ and had read so many Christian books and put in so much effort to develop spiritually. Much as I was growing in my love-relationship with God, I experienced some degree of struggle with sexual temptations which awed me. In my naïve mind, I had thought that getting born again would assuage the sexual tension most young men face from their teen years. Being in my early 20s then, I thought I was going to be free from the thoughts of sex and the temptations that come with it. So I cried to God for ‘deliverance from sexual temptations’ so I can live a holy and righteous life .Please find below the text of my prayer to God as I recorded it in my journal then. With maturity setting in though, I now reckon that I may’ve asked for too much then since we can only be immune from temptations to sin ( in anyway possible) only after we’re long gone and dead! I hope this prayer makes sense to the readers and feel free to send in your comments and suggestions:
Shalom and God bless.
Felix Abrahams Obi
DELIVER ME! : A Psalm of Dereliction
I am ashamed. How can I behold your countenance? I’m so embarrassed by my thoughts. They plaque me at day and haunt me at night. I even dread to lie on my couch till morning.
When will you deliver me from this snare? I know it’s all my fault. But you can’t leave me to waste away in this valley of desolation. The skull of the enemy scares me with its gapping jaws gnawing at me. He pokes my soul with thorns and briers. My bone wastes away all day long.
My sins and thoughts separate me from you. In weakness, I see me go back to those things I’ve forsaken. Destroy the wall of flesh in me. I long to have a broken and contrite spirit; and a pure heart before you always. How many times will I wake in filth and shame? I hide my stench from those that love me. But the enemy rejoices over my dereliction and accuses me all day long. LORD! DELIVER ME!
Many are my woes and afflictions. In your LOVE remember me. Break this crushing yoke upon my neck. Pour your wrath upon the enemy of my soul and release me to serve you. Cause me to Love you with all my heart, soul, mind and strength. Let me be glued and riveted to your LOVE, oh Lord!
You created me for your glory. May my life glorify you. But the dead cannot praise you. I have nothing to offer you, save this. Take all from me; for yours they are forever. Purge me. Make me an instrument of praise now that vigor and zeal are within the gates of my frame!
Take me to the mountain. Lead me through; The GATE; The DOOR. Unveil the Sanctum Santorium (Holy of Holies) and cause me to behold LIFE in abundance. Let your Shekinah GLORY overwhelm me with Love.
You alone will be LORD in my life. By your grace, idols will flee from me. I will live to declare your GLORY for you have removed my iniquities far from me. No longer will I wake up in shame and fear. For you alone knew how much I have suffered.
Exalt the horn of my youth. Anoint me with hot oil. Let your Presence herald your fullness. And never will I be oppressed again because you are now in the throne of my life. For you have not disdained my cry of dereliction! AMEN!
NB: The author is a physiotherapist and moderator of Cry of Adam Network, and can be reached via email@example.com
This is an important piece. Sexual Temptation will always be there and sometimes it just too much testosterine but the Lord can help a man. I have been single for 12 years and God is the helper. Thanks. God bless you. Amen.
The thing is Felix, Sex is not a human thing but a spirit thing. God created man with that strong desire to reproduce. It’s natural, normal, acceptable and Holy.
Accepting yourself the way God made you is important because He won’t fix what isn’t broken. Our Challenge in life is to live with our sexual desires. We need knowledge, Gods’ Grace and God within, man or woman.