James 1:17, ďEvery good and perfect gift is from above.Ē (NIV)
Dearest Baby Girl,
When I look at you I am overwhelmed at the flood of emotion that washes over me. What a perfect little gift you are! Never before did I realize to what depths a person could love. It is a love that is not for what you can do, how you behave, what great feats you accomplish or for how you look, but just because you are. It is a love that brings laser sharp clarity to the expression ďto kill or die forĒ. It is a love that has shown me the tiniest bit of a glimpse into the love our Father has for us all.
How could a wee one like you ever understand how much you were wanted? Oh, the prayers that were prayed and the tears that were cried for you, long before we met, when I first held you in my arms. Long before God knit you together in my womb. You are part of Godís plan for my life and you came along at the time that He chose. I waited so long for you and I must admit, there were times I wasnít very patient about it. But finally you arrived and I realized that you were worth the wait.
Is there a certain time that is more special than others when Iím with you? No, I donít think so. There are so many special moments. Like when youíre first waking up, moving around and cooing, and I come to your crib and look over at you and you first see me. You give me the biggest smile and I realize that Iíd been waiting for this moment. Or when Iím feeding you and Iím looking into your beautiful blue eyes and you reach up your hand and touch my face. Or when weíre playing together and you laugh. Oh, how I love that laugh!
There is so much I want for you. I pray that you have a good life, full of love and great relationships, with lots of laughter, fun and adventure. I also pray that you will be strong in the face of adversity and will be an overcomer. Remember my child, ordinary people make excuses, extraordinary people make a way.
How I wish I could always protect you and keep you from harm! But I know, and youíll discover, that you canít learn to walk without a few falls. Thatís ok, as long as you keep getting up and trying again. I know this world can be a big, scary place, but I will always be there for you, for as long as I can be. And if ever a time comes that neither your father nor I can be there for you, God will be. He promises to never leave you, nor forsake you. He will always be available.
I promise you that I will always love you. No matter what. I promise that I will always try my hardest to do my best for you and to be the mother to you that God created me to be. I know that I will make mistakes along the way, but I will always try to apologize for them and make things right between us. I promise that I will raise you up to know and love the Lord and encourage you to find the path that He has for you. He has a specific purpose and a plan for your life and it is only in Him that you will find your fulfillment. The gifts and talents He has given to you are part of what makes you unique and those gifts and talents will help you to fulfill your purpose.
There will come a time when you will grow up and start to live your own life, independent of your parents. I pray that when that time comes Iíll be able to let you go, knowing that I did the best job I could. I pray that the Lord will help me to give you both roots and wings. You are my good and perfect gift from above.
That beautiful baby girl is already blessed more than most for she has been given an amazing woman of God for a mommy! I love you my friend your writing is real and from the heart! I am blessed to know you and share Reagans birthday! God had to include me! Lol love you
This is wonderful. Not only is it well written, but it captures the joys of being a mother, and the wonder of it. Thank you for making me remember those days when mine were little like that--precious memories that I tend to forget in the daily frustrations. Blessings!