Why I Don't Worry (Even When I Think I Should) by Beth Ann Fiedler Copyright 2008 Beth Ann Fiedler 3/64. All Rights Reserved.
My "brothers and sisters in Christ" isolate.
New to a church but some afraid to say which one.
Or worse, they forget that I prayed for them and their
families and witnessed about the true living God
even as they presented me with an unpleasant digit.
Are they afraid of their saviour?
Or have they found something else?
Something they cannot speak out loud
for fear that they will be revealed.
Legalism? Cults? Groupthink?
Proud to be "on the inside" but
can't find the door to get out?
I ask, "What do you believe in?"
"What are your foundational truths?"
Some respond, you would not understand.
I say, "Try me."
Instead, they tell their children that
I ask too many questions,
that I tell lies
and to stay away from me.
But I remember the truth. I was there.
And I understand that my presence
threatens to break open their lies.
I was not sent to speak any lies.
God in me convicts them and
they are afraid.
But this, I know, is ultimately good.
The Lord said that all will be revealed in the light.
Why do they hide in the darkness?
Why are they afraid to tell the truth,
for once and for all?
For if they cannot face the known truth,
how can they speak of the truth they
claim to be their salvation?
I say, "God, if I am wrong, show me the way."
I know I am not perfect
but I am not afraid to admit it.
I give God the glory for my gifts and
lean not to my own understanding.
And, I cast my worries upon Him
until the light comes forth as it should.