Lord Iíve missed my crown
In my sins I begin to drown
Excuses flung to ease my mind
I am a sheep fallen behind
Gone is an opportunity missed
A chance to be happy and blessed
A fork in the road behind
And I have chosen the wrong tine
Forgiveness, Lord, is what I need
Once more, in my life intercede
My heart cries for where I am
Cover me with the blood of the Lamb
Through temptations I have fallen
To You, Lord, my heart is calling
I have allowed the world to distract
Through the Spirit call me back
Fear of following Your call
Too often I use excuses to stall
Too busy is what I have said
Refusing to follow where You have led
I long to serve only You
While the enemyís strongholds grew
Deadly whispers from the enemy
Causing a war to rage within me
Help me, Lord, I cannot stand alone
Restore me to the path You have shown
I desire to worship You in spirit and truth
But my thoughts and actions offer no proof
Renew Your Spirit within me
Reopen my eyes so I may see
Too often it seems I go astray
Going down the path the wrong way
For Your wisdom again I ask
Strengthen me to perform Your task
Guide me through the wilderness
Give to me a spirit of willingness
I am reminded that I live to serve
I prove that grace is given, not earned
Fallen on my knees once again
Give me victory over the battle within
Brothers and Sisters,
It is funny, it doesn't take any physical acts to put you in a position where you need to cry for forgiveness. I admit that I am yet to be perfect. In fact, the Lord still has quite a bit of work to do with me. I just no that for every minute I am not focused on the Lord I am not fullfilling the Commision.
The war with my flesh continues. Bad habits have formed, good habits have been lost. I donít do what I want to do and do what I donít want to do. Iíve read this somewhereÖyes, it is in the Word of God that we will all go through this. Our spirit battles our flesh. As I continue to learn I cannot fight this battle on my own.
I am not where I need or want to be, but I see that and I am striving to get back there. At times I feel like a candle flickering in the wind instead of a light shining on the hill.
Pray for me as I strive to get back on track. I have not lost my salvation, but I am battling to be a productive member of the body. I have not been setting the example that is conducive to following the great Commission.
I found myself fleeing my call, trying to blend in to my surroundings instead of boldly standing for the Lord. I have been influenced instead of influencing. I have been falling instead of standing. Here is my heartís plea to stand and stand boldly.
Dear Brother (Is it obvious that I have fallen very far behind in my reading?) Only a few days ago, I stood before my bathroom mirror and wondered "Where in the world have you been?" Now, I suppose I could have asked where on earth I'd been. But I didn't. And I didn't miss the meaning (or pun) either. Got brought me to my knees and in a hurry. And there I was, on my knees in my bathroom floor, crying out the exact same prayer of David that you used a prime of example of here in your article... "OH, GOD!!! Create in me a clean heart!! Renew a RIGHT spirit in me!!" A little while later, I sat down to read. And what I read by Todd Tribble (here at faithwriters) was, I guess, about the most timely message I've ever read. God's grace is TRULY sufficient for us!!! Have a look at his article. I have no doubt it will bless you. From the top of your head to the souls of your feet, you ARE blessed. Heard that one before... haven't you? Well, God doesn't take things back. Rather, He uses things like THESE to humble us, to teach us, to ultimately draw us even more determinedly closer to Him than we've ever been... all for His glory... working them together for good to those who love Him. That would be US, Brother. And that's something to rejoice over for sure!
Bro. Christian, you are on training ground - this is where you will be equipped for the purpose. Just stay on the Potters Wheel and let Him have His way with you. One day you will use this experience to help release others who are trapped. In prayer for you. Jan
Psa 55:18 He hath delivered my soul in peace from the battle that was against me....God is with you in the battle. Just continue to stay in prayer, in the word and put on the garments of praise. You can put on a garment of praise instead of a heavy, burdened spirit. The garment of praise is light and filled with peace and joy. Today is the day for new garments! Right now start thanking God for restoring you, even if you donít see it yet. Love and Hugs, Patty
Christian, your cry for forgiveness and feeling of failure gripped my heart. All of us as Christians have been there. Paul was there: Read Romans 7 - all of it, but especially verses 15-25. Paul said the same as you are saying: I know what I should do, but I do what I hate. But it isn't I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. The good that I want to do I don't do. The evil that I don't want to do, I do....Basically that is what Paul said - losely translated - in Romans 7:15-24. Then in v. 25 he gives the solution - read it. Then go on to read the VICTORY chapter in Romans 8. And then go on to read I John 2:1. When we sin - and we all do - we have an advocate - a top-notch Lawyer who will intercede for us and bring us to Victory. He is not only our Advocate, but our Judge. He (God)alone can condemn us, but when we confess our sins (I John 1:9), He doesn't see our sins anymore. They are gone. Christ's blood has covered them...Take heart, my friend Christian. Take heart! ... Helen
Go Back And begin with the first thing that God told you to do. Obey One Request at a time.And Ask For the Holy Spirit To have Full control over everything you say and do. God won't ask anything of you that he doesn't give the ability to do through Christ and his Spirit.