All I ever wanted was to love you
And feel your love for me;
I thought you felt the same
You even said so,
Promised that forever you'd be true
But it was not so.
Even before the sun had set
I sensed that all was not well,
That I could not make you happy
For I was not she.
And oh the torture of it all!
To yearn to be with someone
Who was always somewhere else
Longing to be with someone
Who was gone so tragically.
Sometimes I thought that we would make it,
Sometimes indeed I thought we had,
But now I think that,
Even in our closest moments
Your dreams were not of me.
Saddened I am by all that is between us
The pain, the hurt, the dreadful agony,
The desolation hovering all around us
Like storm winds battering so relentlessly.
All I ever wanted was to love you
And feel your love for me,
To be a lover to your soul,
A mother to your children;
Alas I think now
It will never be.
Copyright – Patricia Todd.
1993.
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Patricia, one small point, you do not need the title again in the body of the article.Many readers will relate to this piece, but sometimes God enables us to work things through and lighten the baggage we inevitably bring with us.
Your "agony" reminded me of the first several years of marriage to my husband. I was the "second wife" and my insecurities caused me to doubt his love for some time. Thank God for His grace in our lives, regardless of the outcome.
