See how very much our heavenly Father loves us, for He allows us to be called His children—think of it—and we really are!......(1 John 3:1 The Living Bible)
I sit here this morning at my desk and look at a picture of myself and my husband made twelve years ago. I am amazed as I reflect upon all that has happened in our lives since then.
Recollecting memories of the past, twelve years seems like another life time. Since that time we have been through an intensive and heart breaking court battle leaving part of our family in shambles. We survived a horrible wreck and its aftermath. Our family has experienced illnesses that took their toll on us all. There has been heartbreak of family division and the sudden unexpected death of a dear friend.
Looking back on these years causes me to recognize one miracle after another. It is a miracle just to have survived some of those things. I am not surprised that we were brought through each trial. Coming out on the other side of each trial brought us closer to God. He promised He would be with us. He was. He never moved. No matter what life has thrown at us—God kept His promises.
With each trial we had the choice of whether to turn to Him and trust Him or tread water in a desperate attempt not to drown. Too many times I first chose to tread water, leaning on my own understanding and strength. It was a bad choice every time. The bad choices were nutrients to my growth as a Christian. Through trials and tears I learned to pray first. Always pray first.
While going through the extremely difficult court battle with my husband’s ex-wife I felt like I was under attack. She was relentless in her aggressions motivated only by greed and hate. I remember being on my knees in the bathroom of the court house. Other than our pocket book being lighter for her efforts—we survived. We grew, learned and continued to love. God never put us down. He carried us right through it.
I am blessed with a family of missionaries. One year while they were on mission I found myself alone in the midst of a storm. Again I was on my knees in a bathroom. (My husband says I could probably find a more sanitary place to kneel and pray).
This time I was down on my knees in the bathroom of a hospital waiting room. My husband was having an emergency heart catheterization. I cried out to God again. He, so loving and kind, answered me. The doctor said that my husband had the cleanest pipes he had ever seen.
Have you ever watched a father and a child? As the father picks up the child the little one starts to squirm and is ready to go again. It won’t be long until the father is picking the child up again and again and again. God is like that with us. He picks us up and lifts us up when we go to Him.
When life get so heavy that we can’t move He is faithful to be right there. The miracle of it all is He is always there. Oh, I may lose sight of Him and try to fix everything on my own. He understands. I think He just shakes His head and says, “There she goes again.”
So when life throws me another curve what am I going to do? Am I going to hit my knees first and turn to Him or will I worry, fret and freak out until I finally fall on my knees? I think I will look back on all the times His love has seen me through. I hope next time, I will seek Him first. Next time I will rest in His arms. In doing so, the next twelve years will be so much better.
Thank You God for Your everlasting love. I know that I am just as a child, lost without You. I am so thankful for Your love. It is so awesome to know You are always there. Help me to always look to You first knowing Your love is there, all I have to do is reach up. Wonderful it is to know I am a child of the King!! Glory and praise to You. In Jesus Holy Name I pray. Amen.