I'm learning to live with depression and patience is not one of my best attributes most of all with myself. There are so many changes taking place I feel like I am in the middle of a metamorphisis; an emerging butterfly.
I thought about the word care in the context of how I care for myself and how others care or have not cared for me in the past. I got out my dictionary and thesaurus and meditated on the word care for it's exact meaning; one of my pet loves words.
The dictionary says:
be concerned;be bothered;be interested;look after;attend;foster;minister to;nurse;protect;provide for;tend;watch over;consideraion;forethought;protection
I have been neglected and abused but realise God has been so faithful in caring for me. He has and is my Good Shepherd and has looked after me. God has found people to care and comfort me which I find alien and a little strange.
Sometimes hugging can be overwhelming until I get to know someone pretty well but it's the little things; kind words, consideration, my husband taking my dog to the vet, my daughter saving me my favourite curry or my best friend ringing me up to go round for coffee. My on-line friends have also left loving comments, a nice picture or just a quick hello.
I know that God accepts me as I am for I am learning that He is interested not in the outside appearance but what's in our hearts. My prayers these days are sighs and groans.
Looking at Jesus' life on earth He was so wonderfully practical. He spoke and touched in a gentle and caring way. He always said the right word at the right time and that is important. His humility is just beyond anything I've ever seen and heard of.
There is no one quite like Him. No wonder the church Pharisees and Saducees were mad at Him. He confounded them, angered them because it actually showed them up for who they were and yes what they are today.
The biggest miracles are not the showmen type miracles it is the everyday small, often unseen acts of kindness that only God knows about.
Jesus says when we pray we should go into our rooms and shut the door and our Father in Heaven who sees things in secret will reward openly.
The miracle to me is that Jesus saves and forgives us so that our names are written in the Book of Life. This is our reward, which we patiently wait for, to walk hand in hand with my Saviour Jesus Christ forever is truely worth waiting for.
In the mean time holding fast to His promises, giving and showing love to all who ask in the hope that they see Jesus in me. This to me is the Gospel of Jesus Christ. To share the gospel you have to be the gospel;everyday.
If you died today, are you absolutely certain that you would go to heaven? You can be! TRUST JESUS NOW
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