One night I was lying in bed.
My husband had fallen asleep. Suddenly I could not move. To make this even more frightening I heard a loud noise like a freight train and cornets and trumpets, bells, and it all was so loud!
Then an Angel stepped into the room. He was covered in Shekina. He opened a scroll and began to read.
He acknowledge my calling into the ministry. Then he warned me that I had to get out of strife and stop fighting with difficult people in the church.
He read on and on. I was in misery. My ears felt like they were bleeding from the deafening sound.
Clouds of Shekina were swirling about the room and my husband was still snoring up a storm.
From his tone, I felt that God was very angry with me.
He had been trying to get me out of strife for years but I had gotten in a rut and was too mad to forgive.
So now I had been warned and I received it all.
Yes. I would walk in love!
I will forgive.
I will not back bite.
I will not judge.
I will be patient.
I will walk in my authority.
I will sign anything, if the noise would just go away!
Then the Angel rolled the scroll together, turned and walked straight out the way he had come.
My husband was still snoring.
When I was able to move again, I kicked my husband in the shins.
ďWhy didnít you help me? Didnít you hear all of that noise?Didnít you see that Angel?Ē
Of course he hadnít. It was for me, not him.
Have you ever got a really bad spanking and grieved about it for a long time? That is how I feel everytime I remember this experience. This happened around 1985, and I still grieve about it, occasionally. Why did such a frightening thing happen to me?
Couldn't I be reprimanded some other way? No, evidently not.
God tells us to humble ourselves in 1 Peter 5:6. When we refuse to humble ourselves, he will humble us.
Also Proverbs 21:30 says There is no wisdom nor understanding Nor counsel against the Lord. If God did it that way, I needed it.
I would suggest that if you are in strife and are a Christian, take the word and get out of it now. Forgive now.
When God tells me to do something now, I try my best to obey.
I donít care if people make fun of me.
I donít care if they laugh at me and call me a liar. Thats a part of sharing the gospel.
I have heard the noise from heaven and I donít want to ever hear it again!
1 John 4
7Beloved, let us love one another, for love is of God; and everyone who loves is born of God, and knows God.
4:8He who doesn't love doesn't know God, for God is love.
4:9By this was God's love revealed in us, that God has sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him.
4:10In this is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son as the atoning sacrifice for our sins.
4:11Beloved, if God loved us in this way, we also ought to love one another.
4:12No one has seen God at any time. If we love one another, God remains in us, and his love has been perfected in us.
4:13By this we know that we remain in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit.
4:14We have seen and testify that the Father has sent the Son as the Savior of the world.
4:15Whoever confesses that Jesus is the Son of God, God remains in him, and he in God.
4:16We know and have believed the love which God has for us. God is love, and he who remains in love remains in God, and God remains in him.
4:17In this love has been made perfect among us, that we may have boldness in the day of judgment, because as he is, even so are we in this world.
4:18There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear has punishment. He who fears is not made perfect in love.
4:19We love Him, because he first loved us.
4:20If a man says, "I love God," and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who doesn't love his brother whom he has seen, how can he love God whom he has not seen?
4:21This commandment we have from him, that he who loves God should also love his brother.