I want to be transparent here with you today when I say that for the last month I have been in a serious funk. Nothing I do seems to be going right and everything that could go wrong has or is desperately trying to go wrong. The job, the kid, the husband , school and the whole family being sick for 3 weeks. I wont go into detail but it was frustrating to say the least. It was so discouraging at times and there were days, I was screaming inside, I just wanted to throw my hands up and say ďthis is too hard, I cant do this.Ē
And truthfully it wasnít until recently that I finally got so discouraged that I had to get desperate. Desperate for God, his presence, his love, his peace. I am learning that the closer I get to God the less I can do without him. Sure I prayed, I read the words. But I wasnít depending on him everyday. And truthfully, there were days I didnít want to pray, I didnít want to read, I didnít want to do anything but have a pity party for one. And I did.
But thank God for his mercy and Grace and patience and for allowing me to go on vacation for 5 days. Because thatís what I needed to refresh my spirit.
I was on the beach having some alone time with God early one morning and saw a young family coming down onto the beach. A mother and father and two small children probably 3 and 4 yrs old.
The small girl wasnít keeping up and so she began to cry because she thought her family was leaving her, while all along the mother had been looking behind to make sure the daughter was still following.
But the child didnít see that, so she stopped and started crying. As far as she knew, she was being left. So the mother hearing her cries went back to get her, knelt down in front of her and caressed her head. Then as she stood up, the child reached up for her, so the mother picked her up and carried her.
God gave me revelation that day when I saw that. God showed me that I was like that small child who was crying because I couldnít keep up, because I felt alone.
But my Father had never left me, he was keeping an eye on me the whole time and finally when I couldnít go on, I cried out to him and as I reached up for him, he picked me up and carried me.
Do not Despair
And so I want to offer that same encouragement to you today, that if you are in that place where you just want to throw your hands up and say I quit. God has not forgotten you. Just like that mother, he hears your cries and when you reach up for him he will lovingly pick you up and carry you.
So during those days when you begin to feel discouraged and defeated and you just want to throw your hands up in disgust, start turning that energy around and throw your hands up to Jesus in desperation and praise him through your situation. Regardless of what you see. It might be too big for you, but try and see your situation through Gods eyes, once you do you realize how small your problem really is.
Because God is bigger than your problem.
Donít get mad, resentful or lose hope. Instead, get hungry and get down on your knees and pray. Because when you do his love will find you. And the awesome thing is it doesnít matter if it is your fault or not. No matter what we have done, no matter how badly we have ďblown itĒ, we need to know that grace and mercy are available at the cross.
So instead of getting discouraged, get desperate!!
Donít give up
God shared with me and helped me to see that when our back is totally up against the wall, there is no place to go but forward. When you begin to face adversity and when your facing those Giants, donít get discouraged because just like David and Goliath, when David defeated his giant he went into the promise land. So begin to look at your giants as a sign that when you defeat them greater things lie ahead.
Because trouble is an indication that your about to get your breakthrough!
Keep your Faith
I have learned that Faith doesnít prevent everything but it will carry you through it. To please God we need the kind of Faith that says God did it! I believe sometimes God will bring changes or challenges into our lives to shake up our dependence. So we can see that we need him and that we cant do it in our own strength. And sometimes he will let you get down to your last five dollars so he can show up and show off!! So trust him and he will provide.
I believe we are closest to finding His will for our lives, our happiness and usefulness, when we are completely in the dark waiting for that first gleam of dawn, and depending fully upon Him to cause the sun to rise.
God wants to bless you and bring you out of your situation, he doesnít want you to struggle and he doesnít want you to worry. So remember that anything is possible when you have God in your life.
And did you know that if you couple faith with worship it will bring favor into your life. And favor means you get things you donít deserve. And who doesnít want that?
If there is anything I want you to take from this article it is this.
Realize who you are in Christ Jesus. There is nothing, let me repeat that,
NOTHING that you cannot do as a Christ filled vessel.
If things arenít going your way, challenge it and it will change. Get mad if you have to, grit your teeth and back your ears and refuse to give up. Donít let the enemy take anything else from you, declare that you are a child of God and that you will not be defeated no matter what you are up against. You need to get to the point that you say
ď I am too desperate to be denied.Ē
Press in, press on and get on with it. Begin to see your dreams manifested.
Begin to proclaim that you are worthy of the blessings because of who your Father is.
Trust God and he will carry you, he loves you more than you know and there isnít anything he wont do for you. Give him a chance and he will take care of the rest.
I leave you with this word
ďFear not, for I have redeemed you: I have summoned you by name, you are mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers , they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy one of Israel, your savior.Ē Isaiah 43:1-3