Like many young people I rebelled against the teachings of my parents and grandmother when I went off to college. I knew that they had strong faith and I did not doubt their teachings, but I believed that there were other ways.
I had professors in college who openly mocked the Bible and all of the teachings of my youth, and we said nothing because we were not grounded and settled and did not know how to defend the faith.
I spent many years researching, and reading and trying to understand many concepts of religion. Finally I began to see lies, errors and deception.
Then I came to the wonderful and belated conclusion that my parents were right. Jesus IS the WAY, TRUTH, and LIFE.
The day it happened there immediately came a knock on my door. I opened it. A short bald man was standing on my front step smiling.
“Its true! I’m so happy for you. Its true!”
He gave a knowing look raising his eye brows.
I looked down the street. “Where did you come from?”, I asked.
“Oh I was just walking down this street and thought I’d drop by.”
The man just turned around and began walking away.
Then he jumped for joy once more and said,
“Its true. You finally found the truth!” Then he disappeared down the street.
Was that my angel? He sure looks a lot like Danny Devito.
So… I wanted to know more about this Jesus.
Dutifully I went to all the major libraries in my city, but found very little. As a matter of fact, I found more about other things that I had just found out were not true.
So months passed and I am still digging for books about Jesus, but never am satisfied.
Then one day as I was still wondering how I was going to get to know this Jesus—(you know the one my parents and grandmother had taught me about all of my life), God spoke to my heart and said, “Why don’t you read the Bible?”
Oh no. I can’t read the Bible. The Bible is too hard to understand. No thanks. I’ll just keep looking.
The foolishness of youth.
I did come upon a book by Hal Lindsey, “The Late great Planet Earth” that revolutionized my life and helped my faith, but still I wanted to know more about this Jesus, but I didn’t want to read the Bible!
One day as I was again meditating on how I was going to learn more about Jesus, God spoke to my heart again,
“Why don’t you read the Bible?”
Like the Disciples, I had fished in many waters but was not satisfied with my catch...
Nevertheless at His words, I reluctantly obeyed.
I opened the Bible at random. The page was Proverbs 1:7 The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge… When I read that scripture I had an experience that I have heard others described but it had never happened to me.
God ILLUMINATED the words and they became alive to me. I took off running and could not stop.
My family was afraid. I walked and preached Proverbs 1:7 for two days. I could not settle down.
I couldn’t understand how people were so blasé’ about Proverbs 1:7! Isn’t it awesome? Proverbs 1:7
Look! “The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom!”
Look! Listen to Proverbs 1:7. Isn't it amazing?
Woop dee doo.
This went on a little while longer, and I settled down a little.
Then a dread came to me. I had to get back to living on this earth.
I had a psychology class...
I can’t go up there to the university like this!
I thought about many things, like calling the professor and telling him that I couldn’t come to class because I had a profound religious experience. Right.
So I packed up the next day and went to class.
The spirit of God was still very strong on me and I couldn’t sit still very long.
I was distressed on how I was going to sit down for an hour and not tell anyone about Proverbs1:7.
I pushed my chair all the way to the back wall of the class room, and sat praying that I could make it through the hour.
The professor came in. He was a known Atheist.
I looked at him and suddenly he looked like the Emperor with No Clothes. I am speaking spiritually.
Immediately peals of laughter began dancing all over me. I folded my arms tight around me to try to contain myself.
I decided not to look at the man---maybe that would help.
God had lovingly formed this man in his mothers womb and gave him the breath of life, and now he is saying that God does not exist.
What a supreme insult to the Spirit of Grace! To believe things that you can understand with the intellect, and not the spirit.
Have you ever been in a situation that was so funny but it was inappropriate for you to laugh?
This was too much. I had to go home!
I got up slowly and felt the love of God wash all over me again. I caught a hold on the walls and somehow made my way out of the classroom. I slid along on the wall until I reached the ladies room.
I stood there washing my face. How in the world was I going to get across the campus, to the parking lot in my car and make it home without telling anyone about Proverbs 1:7?
As I was standing there wondering what to do and needing strength, two ladies walked in.
They asked what was the matter.
Might as well tell them.
So I told them what had happened and suddenly we all three were dancing around the Ladies room talking about God's grace and Proverbs 1:7!
Somehow I made it back home that day but that was a week I will never forget.
Study in the Book of Proverbs have been very rewarding, both good and painful.
God heals but he also admonishes. There have been times when he has told me how much time I’ve wasted or how I have been a sluggard, but I am grateful for his love and guidance because that is how we grow.
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