The things you ask for in prayer, I answer. If the prayer is just, and righteous, it will be answered. As you knew at the time I told you this, it is not a magic wand Ė as the Secret purports. Prayer is not a tool through which God is leveraged.
The prayers you prayed for your son and your family were unselfish and kind. You know how my heart is. You have so prepared yourself for the worst, in your heart, that you have come to expect it of me. Son, you see me as so harsh and so ungiving. Do you not know that I long to give good things to my children? Do you not long to give good things to yours? Do you enjoy the works of punishment and chastisement, even when they are necessary? Do you not also look away, at times, and reward them despite the fact that their hearts are ungrateful and demanding?
I am a Father too, son. My children are beyond count. As a father, do you not learn what it means to love? The giving of good things is in the hand of the Father. Do not look on me with cruel expectations. See me as loving, for I am love itself. The depth of my love, son, is too great for a human to bear in its fallen state. Those who look into my face in such a state perish, not because of terror, but because love consumes their sinful body. It burns away the dross, leaving the purest gold.
Ask and it shall be given. Knock, and the door shall open. Put your mind only to this, and let THE FATHER worry about what will be denied, or what chastisement will be given. Your focus is on the bad, and therefore you receive it.
I understand the parallel you are drawing. There was some truth spoken of by the false prophets. They could not masquerade as prophets if they did not twist the truth into their lies. Apply the wisdom that I have taught you, and look to me as the source of your guidance. I am the word, and the word is God.
As you know, son, I am God over all. Not all see me as kind and benevolent. Some demand my fury, and my anger. As they ask, they are given. They wanted a cruel king to rule over them. They did not want rule over themselves. I gave them into the hands of cruel kings, hoping that they would see the folly of it. I came to them in wrath and in fury, hoping that they would seek Me as I am.
My son threw, with violence, the money lenders from the temple. Violence is not always hatred. A whirlwind is violent, but it does not hate. Neither do I hate. I do what I must that my children can be saved, and that they can hear me. Even unto death, I do what I must. There are worse things than the death of the body.
My children are prisoners of sin. I died that they might be released. I came to them after the cruel tyrants had worn down their spirits, as an emissary of love and peace. They were not prepared for me until that time.
I am not contrary to myself. I am that I am. I am capable of wrath, and I am capable of violence and fury, but always so that my children are saved. I will not hate in my wrath. I will not destroy utterly in my violence. I renew. I redeem. I give new birth to the wicked. I give justice to the unjust. I break the hearts of stone. My wonders never cease to operate for the salvation of all. I use every resource, even violence and fury. But, at the heart of all that I do is Love. Love like the world has never known. The evil one seeks to strike down this understanding. It seeks to make my Love seem cruel, because the end of my love is not seen. Paradise ungained seems an idle promise from the mouths of the destroyers.
What proceeds from your mouth, son, has the power to save or the power to injure or kill. Your words especially have this power. It is imperative that you see this, for this is the gift I have given you. This is why the evil one strives with all his might to keep your mouth silent, or spewing violence and curses and defamation. Also, your written words have power. When you are in Me, you write with power and authority. So too when you pray in Me.
Your time here grows short before your daily works will begin. Ask what you have come to ask, and it shall be given you.
It shall be given
A car will be provided to you.
It is already on its way.
This step requires something of you first. You must remove the boxes from your house and put them in the attic. It is safe to store them there now. It is important that you know that what you have done for the warding off of evil was remarkably successful. You have done an amazing thing, son. You have fought off a demon far beyond your strength, and yet it was your strength used in partnership with my gifts to you that defeated him. While you upbraid yourself for being weak and defeated, you achieved a great victory! The heralds of heaven blew trumpets at your success. You are a mighty warrior in My service. I am bursting with pride for you, truly.
Stop seeing yourself as weak and helpless. Do not confuse the strength of limbs that do violence as the mark of a warrior. True warriors fight on a battlefield that is not seen with the eye, and it is there that you are greater than many brutish forces in the world.
You have many helping you, even now. There will be more.
Such Christians are out there son. It takes time to draw them in, but you will find them. They donít all hang out in one particular corner that you have yet to find. Like you, they are scattered over the earth. They would be fruitless among themselves, isolated, or in only one corner. I send my missionaries to those who need them most.
This is a proud and daring thing you ask, and I will not turn it away. I am moved that you ask this for your wife, and not for yourself.
I will grant this wish, for I am the Lord, and all things are possible to me. You will see your wife bourn up on this wish for her. It will manifest in a way that you will be joyous to see.
Your wife grows impatient, but she is learning great patience. Go now, and prepare your day. I will be with you then as well. Hear me in all things, and see Me as I am. I am not cruel in my wrath, and my wrath has been exchanged for grace. Expect Grace, and Love, and Mercy, for I am the Lord thy Father.