She stared out the window, fighting back the tears. People would think she was strange if she cried, so she was fighting to hide it. Normally she didn’t succumb to the self-pity, but at the moment, it was threatening to overwhelm her. There was no “real” reason for it – she had a lot going for her. She’d been out on her own for several years – had a job with a decent enough income to afford her own house, and a few extras. She was working on her degree, and doing quite well at it, too. She’d just been awarded a tuition waiver that would cover the cost of two of her classes. She had family and friends that she enjoyed spending time with… but, in one little corner of her heart, she was having a pity party.
“It’s not that I want guys to flock to me,” she thought to herself, “I’d be happy with just one. It never fails, though, I like a guy and the next thing I know he’s got a girlfriend, or I’m just not good enough for some reason. What am I doing that scares them off?” She sighed, and shifted her backpack. A wry grin crossed her face as she thought, “Well, at least I can pick out the good ones. And at least a couple of them are still friends… even though it’s just not the same now that they’re married.”
She dug her cell phone out of her pocket to check the time; her watch had died a quiet death last week, and she hadn’t had a chance to get the battery replaced yet. Taking a deep breath, she pivoted to look around. Seeing the classroom door open, she wandered in and took her seat and waited for class to start. Maybe if she could focus on that a while, she could forget about that pity party. She knew that God’s way and choosing and timing was perfect; sometimes it was just hard to wait, hard to trust, and hard to have faith to believe that it would ever be time for her happily ever after. Still… she knew that in his time, what he had for her would be better than her own choosing. In the few minutes before class started, she pulled out her Bible and flipped to Proverbs 10:22 – God’s gentle reminder to her that his blessings would bring no sorrow with them. Her happily ever after was worth waiting for.
If you died today, are you absolutely certain that you would go to heaven? You can be! TRUST JESUS NOW
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