This poem was written for a co-worker that had been in and out (and back in) of a relationship with an addict. She confided that she contemplated suicide. She had questions about Christianity and had never in her life been to Church. I spent a year witnessing to her with no avail. I pray the seed that was planted will some day take root.
I sit here and ponder my circumstances,
I wonder what Iím here for.
Love seems to go in and out of my life,
just like a revolving door.
I have burnt so many bridges;
the fire would reach to the sky
The tears never seem to leave my face;
I canít believe there is still more to cry
The road has been tough;
there is nothing worth turning back for
Emptiness cuts through me so deep,
the pain is too hard to ignore.
I sit helplessly here in the darkness;
I reach for nothing but air
I sense You here beside me,
Lord show me You are there.
Anger has burnt so much inside me,
my heart has crumbled within.
I wonder what is ahead of me now;
will I ever be able to feel love again?
Lord they say that you are a healer;
a healer is what I need now.
Can a heart like mine be mended?
Can you show me the way some how?
I donít even know if you hear me,
but some how I sense You are near.
I donít even know how to pray to You,
and all I can give You are tears.
Please help me find You in this darkness,
put out this fire within my soul.
I have nothing left to live for.
Make this heart, turned ash, again whole.
Iíve heard God is the God of last chances;
You are the last thing I have to try.
Help me get my head above this ocean,
please come to me now as I cry.
God is the God of last chances;
He will hear you when you pray.
Turn your heart to Him and believe,
He will come and show you the way.
He will put out your lifeís fires
that have revenged your weary soul.
He will help heal all the hurt;
He will make your troubled heart whole.
Call on Him He will answer;
mercy and grace will rain down.
Living water to quench your anger,
your cup will overflow to the ground.
Godís blessings will shower upon you;
the emptiness will be replaced with His love.
He is waiting on you with arms open wide;
He is calling your name from above.
Call on me and I will answer you and show you great and mighty things which you do not know. Jeremiah 33:3