God is calling me to do something - something more than what I am doing now. I feel a little confused because I donít know what He wants me to do, but I hear Him calling me.
Revival is breaking out in our little Church! Every week we see salvations, baptisms, people re-dedicating their lives, joining our Church and people called into the ministry or full time service. I want to be sure Iím not being caught up in the excitement about this so I am being cautious, I think. But, I can definitely feel the Holy Spirit for the past couple months tugging away at my heart. Am I running from Him? I donít know - maybe. I am just so confused.
If I surrender to full time service, what does that mean? Arenít we all (as Christians) called to be in full time service to God? Two ladies this past week surrendered to full time service. One last Sunday and one this Sunday. I praise God for them! But what does it really mean? Does that mean they quit their jobs and completely surrender all to God? Is that total abandonment to the Lord? To totally trust Him to pay their bills and put food in their mouths and their childrenís mouths? One of these ladies has seven children - four of her own and three step-children. What will they do if they quit their jobs? I wonder. There are no paying positions open at the Church.
Or does it mean that they just finally said ďLord, I surrender all to You. Whatever doors You open for me, I will pass through for Your glory.Ē If thatís what it means, then I am there. I do surrender all. I just donít want to make a big to-do about it. What if I fail Him? What then? I know He always forgives our failures but can I forgive myself if I fail Him? I have failed Him so much in my lifeÖ..
Then, there is my family. I am the only Christian in my family who is actively involved in Church, except for my grandchildren, whom I try to take every Sunday and Wednesday night. But there is no support from my husband or daughters. They already think I am a fanatic! Can I really make a bigger difference for the cause of Christ without any family support at all?
I guess I am asking for advice here from some of you brothers and sisters in Christ. Some of you are a more mature Christian than I am and can better understand what it means to surrender to full-time service as a woman. A lot of you know my story; I was saved as a very young girl, got away from God in my teens and about six years ago asked His forgiveness and turned my life around. God gave me a second chance, and a third, fourth, and fifth. You get my drift. I say all this because I have only been back in Church as an adult for the past six years - so am I missing something? Like I said, arenít we all called to do more for the cause of Christ? How do I know if He really has something special in mind for me to do in the Church? I have prayed about it for a long time. I guess I am scared. Is it normal to be scared? Does it mean my faith is not strong enough?
God has blessed me so much in the past six years and I want to do all I can to please Him. I feel myself at a crossroads in my walk. There is no going back. I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God, in Christ Jesus - as the Apostle Paul said. I am just not sure what He wants me to do. Please pray for me - that God would reveal Himself more to me and show me what He has in mind for me. Also, I truly seek your honest advice. Thank you and I love you all.
Dear beloved Sister in Christ,You are in full time ministry as live under the leading of the Holy Spirit moment by moment in your Christian walk,and our Lord is using you Mightly for His Glory, as your Family and Friends witness the Love and Light of Christ Jesus Shine Through you and through your Beautiful anointed writings that are touching many many many souls!As for a calling in a area of Ministry apart from your daily life,God will make that clear in His Perfect time.I Believe He will continue to use you and your Great Talents for the Furtherance of His Kingdom to lead many to the Pathway of Heaven!
Continue in His Grace Adopted Child of the Most High God!
With Jesus Love,
"Proverbs 3:5,6""John 3:16"
Can I really make a bigger difference for the cause of Christ without any family support at all? Yes and you already do that . *** You have us Julia , we are family . There is no such thing as a little thing done for the Lord because anything that rests in your heart in prayers , concern , wanting to please Him ,and He knows this , because He knows our hearts. Any little thing done , is done with Godly love and concern and greater is He that works through you . Keep writing for His glory and know that you are a blessing to so many !! Your sister in Christ , Julie
Julia, you have asked for advice, and if what I have to say is said by the others who have commented, GOOD. I try to comment before reading what the others have said, so as not to be influence by their words...My advice to you is to listen to "that still small voice" that God puts within us. It is easy to get carried away when we are touched by revival or something, but God's call is INDIVIDUAL. He has a unique work for you. You already have a mission field right in your own home. However, you are on the right track: your heart is open to God's call. Leave the leading to Him. He will tell you by small things what your path should be. Don't be swayed by what others are doing. You have a tender heart and are eager to please God. He will not let you down. Remember, Elijah didn't hear God's voice in the thunder, the wind or the earthquake. He heard it in "the still small voice." To hear that voice we must be still in our hearts. You won't go wrong, Julia. God won't let you. Keep doing what you are doing, letting God have His hand on the wheel. God bless you. You have been a blessing to many.
Julia, my sister, I think Patricia made a very wise comment. Do not think you have to follow everyone else's path. God has a path laid out for you. My advice is simply this: Pray hard, and then listen intently to what answer God gives you. Not everyone can be a minister, a teacher, or anything else, for there must be a balance. God knows right where you fit in this to be in His will. Trust Him! Thomas