Rape. No one likes to admit it has happened to them. The shame we feel, as a result of the rape, can linger on years, sometimes decades after the rape.
Rape changes us. It changes the way we view ourselves. It changes the way we trust the individuals all around us, even the ones God Himself placed in our path, who care about us, and has shown it in so many ways. Especially if we been violated by someone who promised to love and protect us, or someones, in some cases, people had more than one experience of rape in their lives. I am one of those people that had more than one experience of rape in my life. The aftereffects of rape can turn a person into a person who isn't able to trust anyone, even after they been showed so much love, beyond measure.
The giver of this love feels rejected, and does not understand how come this person cannot just get over it, and move foward. The giver, or givers of this love may even feel resentful towards the peson who isn't fully embracing or returning their love. The giver of this love feels the rape victim is being unappreciative, and inconsiderate of their needs to have this person fully trust them. What the giver of this love need to understand, it isn't that this person doesn't want to trust you, they simply cannot do it in their own strength. They need a miracle from God. The same way we can't will cancer away, damage done by rape, that destroys a person's trust in other people, needs to be surgically removed by God and God alone. A person cannot simply cannot undo the damage on his or her own, The best thing this rape victim's love ones can do for them, is be patient, be prayerful, and support them, by not taking it personally, if this person has little to no trust in you, inspite of how much love you shown them. Just keep loving on them. Believe in God for their healing. It will happen. God will "restore the years the locusts has stolen." Joel 1:4.
You see, a victim of rape puts up walls. A shield to protect themselves from being hurt again. Unfortunately that shield of protection, also robs them from risking to fully experience the deep intense feelings of love again as well.
They disconnect themselves from their emotions. They do this so they cannot experience pain. They do this, because they are afraid, that if they fully allowed themselves to experience, to its fullest degree the pains of their past traumas, they will literally die from the pain they would feel. They are afraid of the pain they keep buried way way deep inside. So they block it out, because its much too unbearable for them to allow it to resurface. However, blocking out your pain could never ever make it go away. The only path to freedom from the scars of your past, is by allowing Jesus to surgically remove them. It starts by forgiving the one who raped you. That is step one. The healing however doesnt stop there. God has alot of work to do, to restore what you have lost. The rape victim, just wasnt harmed on her day of the rapee. There are so many afteraffects of rape, that has gotten in the way of her fully experiencing that abundant life Christ died for her on the Cross. Its like, she gave her heart to Jesus years ago, but because she never allowed Him to heal her of the mindsets of the past, she isn't fully enjoying the land of milk and honey/ She has a banquet before her to celebrate all the promises Christ has blessed her with. Yet, because of this obstacle, she isn't fully enjoying it, because of that pain that still lingers on and spills into her new life Christ given her through salvation. So what's a girl or man to do in this sitution?
This inability to trust, as a result of the rape or rapes, even gets in the way of this person having a really deep deep level of intimacy with the Lord. They have a relationship with the Lord that is personal, and good, but they can go much deeper, minus this mental barrier in their way. They are intellectually aware that Christ is thee with them. He shown Himself in their everyday life in a personal way through the power of the Holy Spirit. They may even be able to hear his still small voice, leading and guiding them. They can even at sometimes, feel His manifest presence, if the Holy Spirit makes Himself known to them in this way. However they only could embrace this beaufiful gift of love to a certain degree, because this perso has been cut off from fully feeling her emotions, she is missing out on a greater experience of receiving His love. I believe.
Our fellow sisters and brothers are not without hope. We serve a mighty God that is more then able and willing to remove any and all barriers that stand in the way of us fully experiencing deep intimacy with Him. He can restore us. Reaquaint us. Reconnect us once again to our emotions. He can cause us to cry again. Laugh again. He can and He will. However we must do our part. We have to believe, and not doubt.
Like I said, it isn't humanly possible for a person disconnected to his or her emotions to become fully intimate with anyone. However, it is not supernaturally impossible. Through God, its possible. Through God, the Bible says, "all things are possible"
For those who's faith have grown weary. Even if it feels you been praying for your inner healing forever, and no result, keep praying, do not be discouraged. He is faithful. Remember, for as much as we desire to become more imtimately aquainted to Him, he wants to become more intimately connected with us, a zillion fold. Those desiring a much closer relationship with Jesus, may be tempted to think, if we aren't as connected as we would like to be, that God must not want to be that closely connected to us. Do not believe that lie even for a second. Its from the pits of hell. Remember this. God created us to be in perfect communion with Him. He wants close communion with us so badly, He sacrificed His very own son, to reunite us to Him. He went through great lengths to draw us closer, and He will continue to do so. The Lord will stop at nothing to draw you closer, and that includes removing the barriers that seperate us from Him.He is willing to do whatever it takes to draw us closer. Are you willing to do what it takes to allow Him, by simply believing your deliverance is on its way. Remember the very fact that you are desiring more closer relationship with your Lord and Savior than you have had in the past, is proof right there, that He wants to heal you and take you into a much much deeper level with Him. People dont just desire more of Jesus on their own. GOd places that desire in their heart, through the power of the Holy Spirit. If you are desiring to come closer, if you are hungry for those barriers to come down from fully trusting Him completely, and from being even more intimate, than watch out, He is the one making you desire all of that, He is calling you to that higher place, and "who He calls He equips" Dont feel bad you are not their yet, dont feel guilty for the years that gone by that you let pains from the past stand in your way,just celebrate your victory is on its way.Amen, in Jesus name...
He revealed to you what is standing in the way of your intimacy with Him, barriers of trust as a result of your rape. Now the next step is God removing those barriers. However we have to do our part. We have to stand in agreement with Jesus that He will bring what He promised you to pass. You wake up tommorow, and you still feel like your old self, afraid to trust anyone. You need to resist the temptation to believe you will always be this way. Keep your eyes on your promises, and revelation from God, in spite of how you feel or how things may look. God wants to take you higher, and deeper.He promises so in His word. He is faithful to keep His word. We just need to stand on it and believe. Keep your eyes fixed on Him, not your current state. Believe God for your transformation and freedom. Its coming. God bless you