Paul, the Apostle, spent alot of time convincing people to believe in the Lord Jesus Christ, to be saved. I want to do the same.
The Lord drew me to Him about 28 years ago. I can see Him drawing me all through my life, but He came to save me, especially, because of what my life had become, out of pity, those many years back.
He came with a strong pull to take me out of the miry clay I was in. Out of the pit I'd fallen in, or dug out for myself. Out of the pain I continually felt as a part of living, without God.
Though He'd thrown a life buoy out to me in the form of my husband, that even a non-believing person like myself could see, I was still mentally unbalanced, because without the Lord we are unbalanced.
With a life buoy, on the ocean, treading water, cold, dark, and going no where but down. Looking for meaning in all wrong places. A desire to feel loved that only God could fill.
Sinking into a pit in my life and not even knowing it. I was into areas that could destroy my life and affect the lives of those around me. No person is an island and what we do and how we live, has great affect on those around us. Either for life or an influence of death.
Jesus came to give us life and life abundantly.
I am so thankful to God, Who sent His Son, to save me. And that He loved me. He was a real Savior to me. And I love Him.
Not only that...but He loved my family, too. With real love, something I did not know how to do. And now I know, He loves us all. He really doesn't want anyone to perish.
I'd opened my life up to all kinds of things.
Little did I know that there was a precious Savior standing by, wanting to save me.
I'd opened my life up to the occult in the form of psyhic phenomena. Without being born again, we can't enter the Kingdom of God. Jesus is the only Door. So anything we explore, is not heaven.
There is a wide path that leads to death and many find it. Narrow is the path that leads to life, and few there are that find it. I so thankful that the Lord is the narrow way, and He was kind enough to find me.
Multitudes marching like silent dumb lambs down a wide path that leads to hell. Not knowing that that is going on.
No wonder Paul, sought out so hard to convince people that Jesus Christ was the Messiah, the Savior of the world.
I began to have dreams telling me things that were going to happen. I was delving into psyhic phenomena. I had become very fearful. The phone would shut off while I was talking, when I began to discuss these things with people. I still hadn't accepted the Lord. The Bible says when we don't know the Lord and don't do right, we run when there is nothing to run from. I was always running out of my house.
It opened a door to sickness and everyone was sick with all kinds of things.
Let us go back one year, from this:
On my porch one evening, I felt a pull to believe in God. I said out loud, if I could believe in You, I would, but I can't. I sincerely meant it. I look back and now can see it was a beautiful pull and call from the Lord God Almighty to me to save me right there and then. And I was right, I couldn't believe. The god (who is no god) of this world had blinded my mind.
But the God of Creation, the God of Everything, was drawing me, in love, to Him, to know His Son, who had died for me, and overcome all things and wanted to be my Savior.
So, for one year, I searched in all the wrong places. I began to look for meaning to what I was experiencing in the psychic phenomena in my life. Auras, and dreams, whatever. But I was looking in the wrong places.
Everyone in my family got very sick with many things. We all had picked up giardia, a parasite, and no one could figure out what was wrong.
My son had epilepsy at two years old. My daughter had a huge umbilical hernia and my son had had severe ashma for a long time, and the other would experence it also. And I was so mentally unstable. And I was very, very sick.
At the end of the one year I knew there was a devil trying to kill me. And because of that, I KNEW there was a GOD to save me.
I could believe in God. Now, I knew He existed. OH, glorious change! Oh, Breath of Fresh air ! I believed in God!
And the Lord lost no time and set up circumstances for me to be saved and meet His Son.
A blind man could see the Lord bring circumstances and people into my life to lead me to Him.
A lady He'd brought divinely into my life took me over to her friend's house one day. The friend ask me if I wanted to receive Jesus as my Savior. Though no one had spoken to me about Him, I knew I was ready, it was like my heart was prepared.
There was such a pull of God in and on my life to Him. She prayed for me for the Baptism of the Holy Spirit, also.
I was not churched, had never seen these things, but divinely began to speak with other tongues. It was an experience that is just as real 28 years later. I'll never forget it. Another language flowed out of my mouth. I'd received the Lord Jesus as my Savior and salvation through Him and the Baptism of His Holy Spirit in one day.
I began to be convicted of my thought life. I suddenly understood that Jesus Christ, that God, knew everything I thought, and nothing was hidden from Him. I was embarressed and wanted to change my thought life, now knowing He was there with me.
All I could do is think about God. It was a strong pull of the Love of God on me everyday and all I wanted to do is think about Him. This Presence of God's Love, stayed with me always. I still feel the Love of Jesus Christ everyday of my life, and now I know it is Him and He wants me to let others know how much He loves them. I can't not want to let them know. It is so clear, it is Who He is. It is the way He is.
And He began to change my life. I began to experience a walk with the Lord Jesus through His Holy Spirit that I never could have known existed. More wonderful than I can express. Whatever is hard, the Lord is so wonderful it isn't able to compare to that, every tear is wiped away.
He began to heal my family.
We'd all gotten a parasite that at that time, no one knew what it was. Giardia. A technician found it by taking it on himself to look. That, I know was, a miracle in itself. The doctor had said I had nerves. It was the worst case in my family of giardia that they had ever seen. I had to be carried out of the house by my family unconcious, the fluids wouldn't stay in me.
And then, I could not take the medications at all. My family did, and were okay.
I was very sick and had little ones to take care of. But I had the Lord. And I don't remember being worried, just telling the Lord I didn't know what to do. I was a young wife and mother and I was concerned for my family. I expressed that to the Lord.
I was sitting on a couch in the front room with unbeliever's and atheists in the room. I didn't know anything. I had never known a life like this, was not churched in the walk with the Lord.
I heard the Lord speak to me. The first time I ever heard God speak to me that I know of.
And He said clearly to me, "Ask Me for healing, but don't waver."
I said in response to Him, "I'm asking You for healing, and I am not wavering."
This is in the Book of James, to ask but not waver.
On the top of me began pouring, like a Golden Oil, down on top of me over and over, filling me, the first time through my body it went in pushing something out bit by bit, as it came in. After that, I just felt this precious golden Oil pour down on me for days. Every time I thought of the Lord, it would start again, pouring down on me. It was a precious time.
I was healed. I went and got a test, and it was gone. I never have had it again.
The Lord began healing my family. We ask for healing of the unbilical hernia for my baby, and it was gone the next day. We ask for healing of the epilepsy that my son had, and it too, was healed and gone.
Some much while later, while walking down the street, the Lord turned and rebuked the spirit of ashma that had afflicted my son also. It too, was gone. So many healings from the Lord over the years. Such a thoughtfulness of God, and watchfulness over us.
Our life with the Lord. He is more than we could hope for, or ever, ever, think to ask for. That is Him, Who He is, how He is.
After receiving the Lord, and the Baptism of the Holy Spirit, there was such a strong pull in my life to Him in His love.
It is felt just as much, His Love, today. He has never left me or forsaken me. He has corrected me, saved me, always cared for me. I could not live without the Lord. I see Him, shining out, so full of love, an expression of such care for us. All we can do to run to Him, to let nothing hinder us.
I was walking one day, not long after receiving Him and He spoke to me, again.
It was concerning the physic phenomena and delving into the occult, auras, and dreams with people telling me the future and all involvement in phyic phenomena and the Lord spoke to me clearly concerning it, and I understood clearly that it was witchcraft.
He said, clearly "This is not of Me."
I understood perfectly what He said and meant. He spoke clearly. I turned that day from what I was doing, and any involvement in it.
He delivered me from the influence of it though the years. He is my Lord, and His life is like a Light shining brightly. I know I am in His hands.
I have walked out in a new day, and the Light shining on me is the Light of Jesus Christ my Lord. It is truly, a brand new Life.
Sincerely, Kathleen Angell