I stood on the beach today, Lord. I stood there and was struck by the vastness of the ocean before me. I could not see the borders of this great body to the east, west or in front of me, and I could not really grasp just how far away those borders were.
It made me think of You, Lord. About the love You have for all of us. It has no limits, just as the ocean appeared to be from where I stood. We cannot even imagine how vast it is. I thought about the depths of the ocean. Even though it has a bottom, I will never even catch a glimpse of it because of the great distance downward at which it dives. But Your love for us has no bottom; there is no end to the depth of it.
I stepped out into the water a little way, letting the water lap up onto my legs. Then I went a little farther, where the water would come up onto my neck when the waves rolled by. I stayed at a safe distance from the shoreline should I find the need to make my escape from the waters. I dared not go any further because as You know, Lord, I donít know how to swim. And even this reminded me of You.
I do not have to fear going into the deepest waters of life because of Your love. I know that even though in the deepest waters, where the waves are powerful and the current is strong, that You are in complete control. As long as I realize that I am in Your hands, I will have nothing to fear.
Father, squelch that little part of Peter in me that makes me loose my focus. That makes me turn and look toward the shore with that little bit of doubt that makes me question if Iím really safe from drowning after all. For I know that in that moment, I will begin to sink. Or I will make a mad dash for the beach where I have been deceived into believing there is safety. And that is not what I want my fate to be, Lord.
I want to shed everything that keeps me from truly experiencing the fullness of Your love and leave it lying on the beach. I want to jump in with no hesitation and no fear. I want the waves to wash away all the things that I was unable to free myself from; that only Your love can cleanse from my life. I want to swim freely in the deep waters, with no distractions, no encumbrances, and no doubt. I want my movements to be beneath the surface, where nothing that is outside of these waters can influence me, or entice me to come up for air, and where I cannot even see the surface. Because I want You to be my breath, my strength, my stamina, and my life preserver.
I want to live all the days of my life deep within the waters of Your love. Totally immersed, drenched, and soaked to the bone in that sea. I want to swim laps around all the lies that made me believe that I could not swim at all. The lies that told me that this world was a scary place to be, that I would be on my own, or that I was not even worthy to dip my toes into the ocean of Your love. The deceptions that kept me on the sand all this time.
Thank You for the water. Thank You for Your love, and itís boundlessness, itís unending depth, and itís lack of limits. And thank You for letting me dive right in.
I Love You, Lord.