Death is not a easy thing to go through. Death come to my family more times than I want to say. And every time it showed up it was hard to get over the death of my loved ones. I often worried why did we have to have death. I realize that when Adam and Eve sinned they entered death into the world. And I realize that when Jesus came into world and died to save us from the world's ways, that included carrying our Grief.
I am slowly understanding why he carried our grief. But I am not a hundered precent there.
See, when my mom died I got angry or mad at God. And the man that my mom married. Because I felt it was thier fault that my mother died with cancer. But I knew down deep in my heart that God did not Kill my mom with cancer. Why would God put cancer on my mother he loves her, just like he loves the man that gose around killing because he wants too. God did not kill my mom.
I know that forsure.
I was mad at the time. I wanted some one to blame. I have blamed my slef. By saying while if I did this or if I did that but I knew none of that would change the fact that my mom had died. Even though it has only been three months since she went on to be with the Lord, it was just her time to go.
Now I have some friends that has had loved ones die with in the last week. One died in her sleep, the other one died from unknown cause. Some time in our life we have lost a love one or two. But we just have to keep on living for God and trusting his word.
It is not easy to deal with death, no matter how it happened. But when we have God in our life it makes easier each day to deal with grife.
I still think about my mom when the frist of the month comes around because that is when she died. But it is not has painfull as it was at frist. I love mom and I miss her with all my heart but she is in a better place. She is in a place where she can feed her slef, run, jump and sing praises to God. She is in Heaven. She is whole again. She is not sick with cancer. She is in a better palce.