A wise man's heart is at his right hand; but a fool's heart at his left. (KJV)
The enemy greets me every morning; just as soon as I open my eyes he presents me with a half truth filled with temptations. It seems that some days are more difficult than others and thereís times I fail miserably.
Last year I stepped out on a limb of faith and moved cross this great nation of ours to meet a woman and to enter into ministry with her. I felt in my heart thatís where the Lord wanted me. The area that I went to was like a third world country, poverty was everywhere. I went there to help with a food program, and to minister to those who didnít know Jesus. This was the first time I was on the front line of a spiritual battle of this magnitude. There were territorial spirits, witch craft, demons was the norm in this culture, the people were very traditional. The medicine men were the spiritual guides. To make a long story short, I tried fighting this battle in the flesh and failed miserably. I was so beat down I left without saying goodbye, I tucked tail and ran! I left the things I love doing, and the people I love being with. I failed God, the people, and the family I loved. When I arrived back home I was devastated. I was a casualty of war. I felt as if I turned my Back on God! How could He ever forgive me for hurting so many people.
This scripture kept coming to mind over and over again. A wise manís heart is at his right hand; but a foolís heart is at his left (Ecc. 10:2). It took months of meditation before the Holy Spirit birthed in my heart the revelation.
When are focus is on the Lord and his business, we are on our knees facing Him. This makes us wise servants. In this position our hearts are at the Lordís right hand. But when we turn our backs on Him our hearts are at His left. This would make us foolish servants!
The Lord used this to show me how foolish I was being, not the wise servant I was before I stumbled. I am here to say no matter how bad you feel you failed Jesus, donít turn your back on Him. Even when we do, He is still there with a outstretched hand waiting for us to turn our focus back on Him. His mercies endure for ever!
My prayer today is for your mercies on our fleshly failures.
Lord hold us in your arms, teach us not stop in the middle
of the race, because we want to see you in glory.
I have learned over the years and still need to be reminded, that what I consider to be "my failures" are not failures at all; for you see? The goal was not the accomplishing of a goal, but the lesson learned because I did not reach it. You left me wondering WHY this time in your life was foolish? Maybe, you could draw that out for your readers. I loved the line about being greeted by the enemy in the morning, I can relate to that all too well. I've learned to never mind that he often times wakes me up, so to speak, that's his job and all it does is remind me that life for now is a battle field, not a playground.
This is so honestly real and your heart is open. You have made no excuses. You have admitted your failure and repented. God is a forgiving God. We all fail Him at times, I know I do. He does not expect perfection from us, He knows when we are going to fail before we know it. But, did you ever think maybe this was not the ministry for you, after all? Could it be this was part of the journey He has for you to help you find your true calling? God will lead you to what he wants you to do. Listen to His voice. My favorite part of this article was the ending: "My prayer today is for your mercies on our fleshly failures.
Lord hold us in your arms, teach us not stop in the middle of the race, because we want to see you in glory." You will finish well in this race, I am sure of it. God bless and keep you,
I am here to say no matter how bad you feel you failed Jesus, donít turn your back on Him. Even when we do, He is still there with a outstretched hand waiting for us to turn our focus back on Him. His mercies endure for ever!
This reminds me of the lesson of the prodigal son who returned to his father. We have a wonderful Father, a wonderful Savior, and a wonderful Counsellor. May God bless, and thank you for sharing your thoughts with us. Thomas