You have examined and investigated me thoroughly, my Father. You know where I have come from and where I am going. You understand my very thoughts. It is you who has directed me from before my birth to the present and beyond. You are in total knowledge of everything that I do. My speech and my reflections are known by you and have been planned in advance. Your Spirit has been my guide and comforter throughout this sojourn on earth. Some of what you do is so beyond me that I cannot comprehend except by faith in your steady hand. You are such a part of me that ,even if I wanted to, I could not escape your mercy or your presence in my life. No matter where I go you are there. If I am saddened by my lot you are there. If I leap for joy, on this earth, still you are there.
If I stray from the path that you have directed and even if I try to hide from you you’re always holding me close to lead me back to where I belong. Though lost in a sea of lies and ambiguity and though these things become real to me you are always there. The truth is not far from me and ambiguity comes into stark clarity with your presence. It is you who holds my reins and knew me before I was born. Praise your holy name for I am full of wonder and respect at your very being. Your Spirit has shown me just a portion of the wonders that you have created and I am in total awe of your marvels.
I wish to know more. With each passing hour I am impressed with how well you know my soul and my inclinations. In your hands it is like being clay formed into something useful by, only, your will. Taking the imperfect and modeling perfection. You destined me to be as I was, how I am and how I will be. In time unfathomable you ordained these things.
Your word and your thoughts are more valuable than anything that the world may offer. They add up to the most valuable thing that I have on this planet. Your mercy and grace are incapable of full understanding by me. When I came too from my delusion you were there, in patience, knowing just what I truly am.
Help me, oh, Lord. Keep me from the enemy. Let your enemies be mine. Save me from my pride and the pride of those around me. I suffer grief when I hear your name used in vain and am distressed by those who are against you. I cannot abide those who hate you. You know my heart is true. You know my innermost thoughts. If their be any wickedness or evil in my mind or heart take it from me. Lead and guide me through my perilous times.
Keep your praise in my mind at all times. My blessing is assured. Let me tell of the wonders that you have accomplished in my sojourn on earth so that others may take hope and faith in their own lives. Let me show the intensity of your work in my own life and words so that you will receive the glory of what you have done. For all my existence you have heard and responded to my prayers. You are my strength and the basis for any courage I might have.
There is no guilt in you. You are a magnificent light that shines on the darkness of this world. You are truth and truth is you. When I was rich you guided me; when I was poor you upheld me. Praise your mighty name! With ten thousand of your angels you protected me. They have made a hedge about me that the enemy cannot penetrate. The trust that I have in you is unquenchable. My own blessing is in your hand.
Every need that I have ever had was provided by you. My admiration for your work is beyond mortal knowledge and wisdom. Those in the enemy’s camp find themselves in a state of being without truth. They are deficient in the thing that I most cherish. They have a strong desire for truth but they cannot find it for they have denied truth’s source. In my belief you have promised that I will never want any good thing and you have kept that promise, even, when I was not aware of what “good” truly is.
Reverence and awe for your majesty is with me continually. My deep respect for your commandments is undeniable. I do not wish to live a long life only to see evil but to see your good and you have delivered that good to my existence.
Do not let me fall into the habits of becoming deceitful or ingenious in my relationships with others. Keep me from following false doctrines or idols. Let me find peace in a world of violence. I know you hear my cry.
I know that you hate evil and that those who accomplish evil will be erased from the history of the world. That through their own hand they will accomplish their own end. I also know that those who are yours are protected from them. I realize that you are with me when my heart is broken and that in my repentance you have saved me. Praise your holy name! You, alone, know the pain and suffering that each of your children must go through and have already planned for their deliverance since the beginning of time. Every moment of every day is assigned to the protection of your elect. While those who are against you will fail by their own hand your elect will overcome the world.
How sad for any man to face the world alone, wretched and unhappy. Abandoned. How blessed is he who has placed his trust in you and have become a friend of the living God. Perfect me, my Lord, just as you are perfect. Amen.
AMEN, Stephen! The Scriputre says: (44) But I say to you, LOVE your enemies, bless those who curse you, do GOOD to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you, (45) that you may be sons of your Father in heaven: for He makes His sun rise on the EVIL and the GOOD, and sends RAIN on the JUST and the UNJUST. (48) Therefore you shall be PERFECT, just as your Father in heaven is PERFECT. (Eph.4:13--till we ALL come to the unity of THE FAITH and the KNOWLEDGE of the son of God, to a PERFECT MAN, to the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ. He is conforming us into HIS image. Blessings, Sharon