When I finally decided to start doing something with my desire to write, I found myself faced with a minor, yet major dilema.
Whilst praying to God for guidance about what to do with my poetry,a song popped into my head, based on Matthew chapter 10, verse 8-'Freely you have recieved-freely give.'
From then on,I'd taken that as a sign that I am to give all my poetry away, and I became quite starry eyed and defensive about it.
I felt convinced, that surely this is the best and most loving thing to do. After all,my desire to write was freely given to me, and the greatest gift is the desire to write about God and share it with those who don't know.
I also believe that is why I, like you, have been blessed in this area, and God gives us such unlimiting inspiration.
However, I also have an extremely low sense of self esteem which, through therepy, am learning that I often feel more guilty than most-unnecessarily so-I often shrink away from things that I later find God actually wanted me to do, all because I think I can't offend anyone, or that I'm sinning.I am discovering that God wants me to be bold, and not tip toe through life on egg shells.
I do hope I'm not alone in this.
For example, I sometimes find it difficult to draw a definate line between turning the other cheek, and being walked upon. Or, giving to all who ask, and letting someone rob me! A bit extreme, but you can see what i mean!
I don't want to be a shrinking violet. No, I want to bloom confidently for Jesus, but it is my lack of confidence that muddles my reasoning as a Christian.
I have therefore, had a change of heart, as far as the song in my head goes.After all, the song, 'My Way' could have randomly come into my head, and then where would i be!
I don't believe that God encourages us to read into wishy washy coincidences. If we started looking for signs all the time, we would be making all kinds of wrong assumptions.In fact, when there is no sign, we'd think that was a sign that something was wrong-AAAAARRRGGHHH- we'd go mad!
Instead, God's Truth is firm, solid, and infinate in age and strength-praise Him for that.
In Deuteronomy chapter 8, verse 18,we are encouraged to use what God has given us, to make an honest living for ourselves.
I no longer feel unnecessarily guilty about actually making some money from my poetry.
I also feel free from the burden of signs, and reading into things.God has made sure we've all heard Him, by having His Words written for us. Those powerful words are generations old, and not only to be discussed and considered.We, as eager writers, need to write His words on our hearts,and we can carry the great news around with us everywhere.
In regards to selling my poetry,I am going to purchase a machine to laminate each piece of work-nicely done with different backgrounds, and search various Christian outlets/bookshops to find out if they are interested.
If you haven't yet decided quite what to do with your gift of writing yet, and perhaps you have other gifts, then don't worry, because there's no rush.God is watching, and you'll know when you are ready to branch out!
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I too have had similar thoughts. I have written unprofessionally since High School (many moons ago). When God saved me from alcoholic death 5 years ago, my writing evolved into more of a theraputic vein. As I posted each poem on my blog, suddenly I began to receive emails from people all over the globe who related to my journey through addiction. Soon after, God opened a door for my therapy and deepest thoughts to become a published collection. I have no question today that God fully intends me to share my soul, experiences, and especially His hope and grace, with all who will listen. I believe as you do that our gifts are meant to be shared. The meager royalties I receive from the first book I donate to a church. If He wills it so, some day I plan to make a living and supporting my 4 children in His service. Whether it be as a writer, or as a Samaritin Warehouse Mgr., I will continue to follow His guidance and keep the words flowing.
Thank you for breaching the subject and sharing your world with us all.
Peace to you and yours,