The journey that God took me through, It started on a hazy afternoon, feeling lost and manic ,I jumped on my bike and began pedaling , pedaling very fast trying to release my manic energy that was communing in me. I was being pulled with a strong feeling in the chest to keep biking down the curvy road and when I got to a sharp turn in the road, there was a path between the corn field and the fence. I got off the bike, the feeling in my chest had now disappeared as if I was at my destination, but still didn’t feel at peace, my thoughts were racing, so I ran, I began running through the field like the manic depressive that I was. Not that it's a bad thing, but I was, and begun running and running until I reached the river , I felt at peace now, I got on my knees, thought about God and began playing with the clay, forming shapes with my hands at the edge of the river. I went home. The very next day, returning home after spending a few hours at a friends house, I was walking beside a wheat field one I have walked beside many times now. I looked over and it looked absolutely beautiful, so beautiful , more beautiful than it has ever looked, as if it were calling me in ,saying ,"come in". I followed my instinct and walked about 20 meters into the wheat field, I stopped , lied on my back, finally felt at ease with myself, a bit more than usual. Seeing how I suffer from manic depression and become very tense within myself and often feel like I'm empty and the word soul had a lot of meaning to me. I work and pray with my manic depression every day. I prayed while i was in the field and then gazed off into the clouds, I got up, brushed my self off and walked home. Now the very next day I found myself walking beside my Mom pondering to myself why I did those 2 strange out of the ordinary things. I told my mom what i did and she said she didn’t know. At this time i was slowly reading the bible and getting my life more into the word so i was becoming a frequent reader of the bible. So I took my fingers and opened up the bible to any random page, I had no desire to learn about something in particular ,so I just opened it up , I read what my eyes first laid there eyes on, and here is what I read. " The lord maketh me lie down in a green pasture. He leadeth me beside the still waters. He restore my soul " Psalms 23 verse 2. There it was the answer to all my questions. and it all started down by the river.
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