“Difficulties and sorrows, if accepted out of love, are transformed into a privileged way of holiness, which opens onto the horizons of a greater good, known only to the Lord.” By Pope John Paul II
This may sound a bit strange but … sometimes when the phone rings I wish I could pick it up and hear God’s voice on the other end. (RING…RING…RING… ‘Hello? God? Is that you?) Although I know there is very unlikely chance that this crazy, daze-ee dream of mine could ever come true (unless we’re talking about God being represented through another human being), I can’t seem to stop myself from wishing for such a surreal reality – especially when life’s roads are rough, it’s yoke is heavy, and my spirit is bound to something less than holy. In these tough days we live, I even often find myself just wanting to pick-up that phone that stares at me during my night hours of confusion and restlessness to call God. Forget waiting for God to call me, I need to hear His voice now! I have questions. I have uncertainties. I am filled with confusion, distress, and discontentment! I am lost - … and it would make life so much easier to continue forth with if I could only hear God’s voice talk to me directly from the other end. How magnificent that soft but thunderous reassuring voice of our Father would sound to an aching heart! It would be like receiving a second wind, a Breath of Life that would – that could carry me through and sustain me in total Peace and Eternal Bliss until it is time for us to come home again.
Have you ever wished such a thought? Do you share or understand my voice?
So often in life we do find ourselves pondering on the whereabouts of God. When we are emotionally hurting, lonely, or physically afflicted with that which is beyond our control we cry out to God and ask Him where He is. Can He hear us? Has He abandoned us? Did He cause or allow this “earthly hell” to shadow our every living step, blanketing us in such a total darkness that not even the Holy Spirit may come to find us? Or perhaps like Christ during one of His most vulnerable and torturous moment here on earth we’ve even cried out, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” (Matthew 27:46 NAB) If He had known that this is how our life would later be why did He give us the gifts of misguided hopes and dreams, talents and sensibility? Why did He give us the gift of will if He knew there would be no possibility for the “will do”? Why indeed? And if that phone call could truly exist – perhaps like you, I guess I wouldn’t be beating on my chest screaming out the same questions now.
But the truth is God does answer us; He did answer us each and every time we’ve called, yelled and cursed His name from our lips. His answers are in the Living Word. His answers came through the sending of Jesus Christ to this earth to live and be with us. His answers lie within the examples lived, lead, and taught by Christ and most importantly, His answers lie within His Only Son’s death and resurrection. Psalm 31:23 says, "Once I said in my anguish, ‘I am shut out from your sight.’ Yet you heard my plea, when I cried out to you." (NAB) Today, God’s answers for us can still be found in the voices of life all around us. His voice is channeled through our friends and family, through a strangers help and nature’s seasonal changes. Today, God’s answers can even be heard through the events that take place in our every day lives (the good and bad). And of course, today His voice still resonates strong to each of us through the Holy Scripture. But if we can’t hear Him then perhaps we need to ask ourselves – ‘is it really God’s voice that I am not hearing or is it just me not wanting to listen to the sometimes difficult answers that my Father gives me, answers that I must face?‘
Could it be that what God’s will all along was simply as Christ had said: “Come to me, all you who labor and are burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am meek and humble of heart; and you will find rest for yourselves. For my yoke is easy, and my burden light” (Matthew 11:28-30, NAB). Could it be that His will was simply an asking of you, of me - to give myself whole heartedly, allowing no room for interference or restless striving on my part, no reservations, no exceptions, no areas where I could set or change conditions or even remotely hesitate? Could it be that God’s answer for all our troubles was to … is to today- give Him the complete gift of our self with nothing held back?
I often find I need to remind myself: Have faith, for God will always be there to bear you up! Father, deliver me … to You. Amen.