I struggle with pain and weakness standing, often to the point where I desperately need to sit down. I get really discouraged and desperate, and often go crashing prostrate into bed. Although Iím full of sadness, I know Iím not alone. I know God is there and ready to listen. Sometimes, I start crying out to Him. I tell Him how terrible I feel. I express also what life situations are bothering and hurting me. As I cry, I feel an extra cry along with me. I can tell He is crying too. I realize He understands me completely and shares my sadness. As an added bonus, I feel strengthening in my weak tissues and some relief to my body. I am reminded that God really can heal us, and am filled with renewed promise for my future healing!
As I lie in bed feeling achy and weak, I often say prayers for myself and for others. If Iím feeling so miserable, I may say prayers for situations I think are more miserable than the condition Iím in such as for Saddam Husseinís repentance in prison or for global protection from suicide bombers. I also pray special requests for family members, friends, and for myself. As I lie prostrate and pray, I feel strength flowing into my injured parts. I soon feel like doing stretches and perhaps giving myself a caring massage to bring me more relief. As I feel the back of my head being strengthened, I may feel inspired to tilt my head to one side and rub the side of it. As I feel the strength pour into my spine and torso, I may feel like extending my hands and feet as far as I can with a sigh. As my achy hips feel strength, I may feel inspired to pull a knee toward my chest to soothe my hip as well as give it a tender massage. I continue to pray all the prayers I have to say. I usually then feel I have some sustaining energy to get up and make an attempt at what I want to do next!
Iím so grateful for the relationship I have with my Heavenly Father during these tough times. I must share with you my relationship with Him is only made possible because of my belief in Jesus Christ, His Son. Iíve learned there is no way to reach Him except through Jesus*, and I sure donít want you to get lost or fearful trying to reach Him without Jesus.
* ďNo one comes to the Father except through me.Ē (John 14:6)