I am only twenty two years of age when the fire of being a Born Again Christian goes out. Why? Because I always turned away and left my post for persevering and for being patient and hopeful to everything. Oh, how I admitted that I am the weakest being born.
Many times I am faced with trials and I always lose hope when things get so complicated that I always wanted to give up. And the time had come ended me up to have fallen away.
I tried to come back but I asked 'to where I must be going back?' I don't know and I can't comprehended it back then. I tried to resolve it but time always pushes me to slipped.
I cried out realizing that life is so meaningless without God. There I found that I am walking to nowhere. I have no direction to go.
One of whom I approached told me that there is no turning back. And growth is what I lack because I am the one who's hindering it... Realizing what she told, I pictured myself as one of the soil of the 'Parable of the Sower'. The one that grows the seed but after a little while because there is no 'root' it did not grow well and suddenly it passed out. She added that I must go on... I have to put my hope and trust to God. She concluded if I realyy trusted Him, why there is something that hindered me to fully let God moved me.
I asked myself too. I examined myself and asked it so many times but I got no understanding of what it is. I felt blind and I also felt numb.
I cried out to Him in prayers but there was no answer. There I found out what it is that I've been missing somehow -- prayers! But back then I did not knew much what to pray for.
I struggle hard because I was touched by the song '...Lord prepare me to be a living sanctuary for you...' I was waken up that 'Hey, are you ready to be a livig sanctuary?' Yes! I am willing... like what I did on my younger years...like what I did before the fire goes out from me. And I wanted to do it again but is there a coming back, to where? I don't know but I wanted to know. It's just that I am too weak and was so blind.
I prayed hard up to now about this thing. That God would show me what it is that I always felt like falling away when He already gave me someone who'll guide me. May God build me up to be strong and firm and that He will use me to be a sanctuary all the days of my life.
If you died today, are you absolutely certain that you would go to heaven? You can be! TRUST JESUS NOW