I have difficulty pouring out my heart to God and letting myself cry. Perhaps it is because I have been abused for the greater part of my life. But it is starting to change. I asked Jesus fairly recently to heal my relationship with my Heavenly Father so I might feel safe going to Him with my fears, pain and grief.
I love my pets. I find unconditional love from them which I never received growing up. For years my cats have brought great comfort to me as I withdrew from others. They seem to always be there loving me when I need to grieve. Innocent and loving animals they are.
This morning, I read something from a person on an internet forum who loved their cat and expressed their grief over losing their pet. I started crying and the still small Voice of God came to me asking me to come and share my grief with Him.
I let myself cry out to my Heavenly Father and after I cried for awhile He gave me this message to meditate on and then share with my treasured readers.
Abba, Father, did You Cry?
Abba, Father, did You cry when Your Son left His home in Heaven to come to us in this dark world?
Did You cry over the slaughter of innocent children slain because a wicked ruler wanted to kill Jesus, who You gave to us because of Your great love for us?
Did You cry when He was constantly rejected by the religious leaders of the day? So envious of Him they were that His life was often threatened. How it must have hurt You knowing the feelings of rejection and hurt He felt. Even though He is God, He is also Man and felt the pain we feel.
Did You cry when He wept over Jerusalem and at the tomb of the dead Lazareth? And what of the time of His betrayal? To have a friend betray oneself is awful! It is some of the worst pain one can feel.
Did You cry when He suffered all alone? His disciples were not able, at the time, to enter into the fellowship of His sufferings. How alone He must have felt! So alone in that garden that you sent Him an angel to strengthen Him.
Did You cry over Your innocent and harmless Son as they began beating Him beyond recognition and shoved that cruel crown of thorns upon His regal Head? Oh, the pain which You felt is beyond comparison! No one has suffered as much as You seeing such cruelty done to Your Son.
Did You cry when they nailed Him to the cross? The physical and emotional pain He endured for us and Your sake, no mortal man can know.
Did You cry when He shrieked out “My God, my God, why hast Thou forsaken me” as the guilt and shame of every human being was placed on Him?
Did You cry when Your Son, who is God died so that we might live?
Abba, Father do you still cry over all the hurt and pain in this wicked world and over the way people still hate and despise Your beloved Son, Jesus?
Virginia, this is powerful and so touching. First, the fact of you suffering abuse and having painful memories is sad, and I was heartened to understand as I read how you have come to lean on Christ, for this is so evident in your words. Animals are wonderful friends, aren't they? I am sure our Heavenly Father must have felt a lot of pain over the treatment of His son, Jesus. He is the greatest father of all. Thank you for writing and sharing this with us. May God continue to bless you, and may He caress you with His love daily. Thomas
Virginia, it is such a moving article and brought tears to my eyes when I read it. The pain that our Heavenly father would've felt is so palpable in your writing. I pray that He gives you complete healing from your emotional scars. God bless.
A very Powerful Moving piece, which will help you to heal more precious sister and to offer healing and hope to those who have been abused and feel rejection. Our Heavenly Father is The God of all comfort and He gathers our tears in His bottle; and the Bible tells us that God so Loved the world that He gave His Only Beggotten Son for our redeemption.
Oh to truly understand the Heart of God and the Love He has for His Son and for us His Adopted children would take an Eternity to measure that Awesome Amazing Great Love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
May the Love of our Heavenly Father continue to heal your hurting heart as He wraps His Everlasting Arms of love around your wounded heart!!!
Thank you for sharing your heart!
With much Love In Christ,
Your forever friend and sister,Dee