Sometimes while sitting, I will have this feeling of oppression come upon me so strong that I cannot move, think or breathe. It literally will take all day for me to press through. Pressing to overcome the battle of my emotions and my mind. I will have so many negative thoughts in a minute that it’s tormenting. Most people believe that the struggle comes from others hindering you in your walk with Christ. I know the struggle lies deep within me. Most of the issues I find myself dealing with are strictly from past situations. Good memories somehow change into negative ones. I often wonder why I waste so much time with this process, when I have no access to the past.
The battle for our life, inheritance, and legacy is real. It is reflected in the Old Testament on numerous occasions. Most of God’s people had to fight for their right to possess their land filled with milk and honey. Throughout their fighting they also had a chosen leader who could hear what the Lord was saying in regards to their situations. God deals with us in the same way except we are now the chosen leaders. He desires to speak with us personally, one-on-one. He desires to tell us what He would like for us to do during our oppressed, depressed and lonely times. The only way we are able to hear the Lord is by knowing and understanding His Word.
In reading the Word it teaches us that Paul a disciple of Jesus also struggled in this area as well. He said, “Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus” (Phil 3:13-14 NIV). It is good to understand that we are not alone in our struggle. I often find myself straining to quote scriptures to take back what is rightfully mine mentally. I also press in to worship daily to possess my emotional state of milk and honey. Yes, it is a press! It is important for women today to obtain this revelation knowledge of the Word. Women are pulled in many directions today striving to meet the need of motherhood, work, friends, marriage, etc. The weight can be so overwhelming. It is during those times that the enemy attacks. Those oppressive, depressive, obsessive, compulsive spirits are seeking a temple to take a hold of.
When you are in this predicament, praise your Father in heaven for He “inhabits the praises of His people” (Psalm 22:3). There is absolutely nothing that can penetrate the presences of God. One great aspect of God’s presence is the experience of mercy or forgiveness. It comes upon you suddenly as a gentle breeze of His love. In His presence give those past issues, overwhelming feelings to Him, and He will replace them with love. This is the most amazing experience of freedom that I have ever encountered. Whenever I am challenged in this area, I remember that I no longer have access to the past. But, I have access to something far greater, the presence and the love of God.