Jesus I'm sorry you have to see me this way again, so broken & weary... my face down in the mud & tears stains across my face. So many times you've had to watch this sad display by me. I'm so sorry... please love me though, please hug me tight with your grace & mercy. Lord, the whole world has seen & recorded all my hopeless words & thought-less actions; they shove them at my face & force them down my throat, the taste is awful... like a bitter pill stuck deep within me. The taste never leaving, always finding new ways to infect the veins in my soul, cutting off my wings causing my face to hit the mud. Jesus, please love me. I can't live on much longer without it. You are my sunshine, you are the rain that washes away my tears, you are the reason for my inhales & exhales, you are in me but are not of me. You've cut away this sinner & made yourself a home right here inside my heart. Jesus please stay... never leave! Oh please never leave me! Without you I'm as good as dead... as useless as the sun with no shine... as useless as the night without the stars. No greatness, no love, no beauty to unfold on my own... you are that beauty!! You are the greatness to help lift the rocks from upon my rusty back. God be enormous in me! Be you in me all the time! Never stop! Even though I run so much please love me & never stop! Their are books & books with words upon words expressing the greatness of you but they're not enough! The smallest bit of your love still blows my mind & overwhelms me leaving me breathless trying to figure out what just hit me. Jesus I still believe. Help me to become stronger in you... help me to be more like you! Lord, consume this body & mold me like Christ! The fire might get hot but remind me of the goal, the goal to one day look in the mirror & not see myself but to see you Jesus smiling back at as you are now! Please love me more tonight.