On a second thought this reminded me of Mary, mother of Jesus, who felt the same loss as you. Nobody but only Jesus can set you free of your grief. May God bless you and strengthen you in His grace to meet your child again when Jesus comes to receive you.
Dr. Thomas, This is so extremely sad. I have been praying re: your heartbreak. I am so sorry you are going through this! I cannot imagine a pain much greater. Thank you for sharing even tho it much be so hard...