When asked to speak the truth as a way to healing, the following words spilled out, I believe, straight from the Heart of the Holy Spirit ...
The Truth as I know it …
There is nothing my Jesus has not experienced that I am experiencing today or yesterday or tomorrow. He understands and will Love me through it with His Love. That love saved my soul. “The LORD preserves the simple;I was brought low, and He saved me.” Psalm 116:6
My trials are nothing but fair and they do work together for my good and the lives that cross my path. My prayer as I endure? Let me get another glimpse of You my God in all Your Glory!
As is any human that has or does or will walk the face of this earth, I am guilty as charged - there is no way to get around that fact. God took mercy on my soul; Jesus came to me because I could not go to Him and He lived a life here worthy of the Deity He is and yet set that Deity aside so that in obedience to His Father He could die as no one else could to bring the Absolute Power of Heaven down to Hell so that all fear could be abolished - replacing it with Hope. Because of that, I am living the Eternal Life He promised and depending on His Spirit to counsel me as I complete life on this side of Heaven. I live to be His bond-servant and want every breath I am given to be worth something in Heaven. “For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain.” Philippians 1:21 I can’t wait to be with Him; that thought I cannot contain; it is my prayer that everyone my life influences can experience the same.
It was my prayer for a very long time and the moment it was answered was ordered in His perfect time, but the moment I allowed my ’self’ to die was the day my Savior truly became my All in all. What a relief; the burdens I was carrying were lifted from my shoulders; those burdens did not disappear but were taken from me by the One Who loves me most - how could I not want to live only for Him when He has given everything for me? "Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they?" Matthew 6:26 “I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me." Galatians 2:20
Sometimes I feel this is a lonely life - because so few know Him as I have come to know Him. Is it because I am not living the life of example I yearn to? "For what I am doing, I do not understand; for I am not practicing what I would like to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate." Romans 7:15 Is it because the light of Faith is beginning to grow dim as His time is drawing closer? This world is a dark place and I believe growing darker with each passing day and that means to me that He is going to be harder and harder to see and for us to show to others; but I will press on until my time is done praying in earnest that when I stand before Him there will be a grin on His Face and the words that proceed will be, “This is My child, in whom I am well pleased!” II Peter 1:17 "I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." Philippians 3:14
I am nothing without Him but everything with Him. I could be standing alone and naked in the street without anything to call my own - no family, no friends, no home, no possessions and yet if I have Him deep inside where He has promised to never leave, I will have everything I will ever need - whether here or in Heaven!