I can’t believe that it’s been so long since I’ve written anything for FaithWriters. But I’m so glad to be back.
I got up this morning & wondered just where things had gone wrong for me? It’s been so long since I’ve really felt happy & contented. I never seem to really do much anymore. At least nothing that’s important. I never seem to have that feeling of everything being brand new & the innocence of just being born, anymore.
Where was the joy I used to feel when I thought of God? This used to be so awesome!
Where was the strong Faith that I used to feel? When Had God left me? Did I do something wrong for this to happen? All these questions flashed through my mind in just an instant.
And then I realized that gradually, I… began to think that things were always going wrong. That I would get up in the mornings & I…felt no joy anymore, & why? Be cause It was always somewhat of an effort and just too much trouble. How sad for both of us.
If we continuously missed each other, whose mistake was this? Did I even really bother to look for God? Or just expect Him to be there at my beck & call and because He was supposed to be there? I was wrong NOT to look for him in very special ways. This was my mistake. Because He was there some where & in a unique way, just for me. Suddenly I realize this. And now in this new instant I will repent & begin to think of things in a brand new way.
I will begin in this very moment to make new efforts. I will continue to really expect Him to be there for me, but I will be there for Him also. I am being reborn in this moment, in these new thoughts & I feel inspired once more as I look at Him again in His Wisdom & Love & His Awesome Forgiveness. All we have to do is to realize that God’s Love begins in every new moment.
Written by Anita Thomas
Copyright 2006
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Anita,
I pray that He will tune our hearts to His that we may hear His whispers of wisdom and revelation. He longs to bring strength, joy, healing and understanding to our shattered hearts. He will bind those hearts up with His love and we will be stronger in the broken places. Anita, our brokenness gives way to hopefullness. He is sending victory and pouring out favor and mercy, Dear One. He will give you a garment of praise, power and His glory. Blessings,Mitzi
