Please note: this article touches on some very personal issues. I contemplated whether it was appropriate to have it viewed to the public or not, and came to the conclusion that the sexual union between a husband and wife is a God given gift- something to celebrate. I ask that as you read this, you donít switch off and view it as filth, but rather, take it for what it is- a celebration of marriage, sexuality and the ability to be completely one with another soul. Thank you!
ďLet him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth Ė for your love is more delightful than wine.Ē Song of Songs 1:2
You explore me with your everything. I breathe you in. I want more. You are my partner, my bestfriend, my lover. I am yours, completely. I want you to take every part of me- my emotions, my physical form, my soul. I want to feel the whole of me becoming all of you. I want you to be free to give me all of you.
Let go. Let me explore you. Breathe me in and know that you are safe. I am your partner, your bestfriend, your lover. Allow me to see your deepest emotions, to know you physically, to feel your very soul within me. Let us become one- no longer two, but through this act of passion, one in every way. Give me all of you.
I hold your hand, knowing that it is safe with you. I say nothing- I donít need to for you know my every thought and desire simply by the way I watch you.
You lean into me and kiss me ever so gently. Again, Iím caught breathless by the power you have over me. You make my insides turn with anticipation. This kiss sweeps me away- it reminds me of our first. You pull away, just enough to make me yearn for more. I lean into you again, ready for you to take my kiss again. You brush your fingers over my face and gently kiss my forehead instead. How I want to taste you again.
Finally, you give me what Iím longing for. You kiss me passionately and I explore you in a way Iíd forgotten was possible. I taste your passion. Iím reminded of your need to know your own masculinity. You remind me of the context of our relationship- the perfect way God created a marriage to be. Masculinity and femininity combined. This one kiss reminds me that I represent femininity. You make me feel like a lady- sensual, gentle & nurturing. I think you know this.
You lift me from where I am sitting. You pull my body over yours, we sit face to face and you kiss me again. I want so badly to lose myself with you in this moment. You gently run your hands down both my arms, stroking away any doubts or fears that hold me back from giving my all to you. I know I am safe and embrace you again with my kiss. I canít stop taking you in. You grab my left hand again and I feel our wedding rings clink as if they naturally belong together.
You run your hands down my back and pull my body closer to yours. The desire between each of us to hold one another in the most intimate of ways is growing by the second. I wrap my arms around you firmly and run my fingers down your back.
ďI want to have all of youĒ I whisper to you.
Slowly, we find ourselves linked in the most passionate of physicality. I am yours and you are mine. We are completely each other. You move so deeply within me. Not just in the physical sense, but spiritually and emotionally, I know you are mine. Though weíve given ourselves to each other so many times before, finally, you and I are one.
Understanding swirls within me. I know that nothing can break what God has created. The bond is too strong and as I hold you, I realise that with all of our every day worries- the kids, our finances, the general ups and downs of life, nothing will stop us from enduring it all together. This moment of deep passion reminds me that we are safe in each other. We are safe in each other because we are safe in our God.
I think you know the deepest of my thoughts and I hear you groan in fulfilment. You have the same understanding of our passion. Itís so much more than the depth of our skin. It is more than a fleeting moment. Itís based on commitment- a certainty that despite the changes a lifetime can bring, we have each other to fall upon. Neither you or I will leave this commitment and we are completely safe.
My body starts to quiver knowing that the ultimate of enjoyment is about to come shortly. It is heightened in a way Iíve never known before. Iím reminded how much I love you- the real you, the deepest of your soul. This is who I love. The world can turn and change. Our lives can face ups and downs, but the person you are will always be the person I run to with love and passion in my eyes, knowing that I am safe in you. I love you for all that you are and all that God calls you to be. You are a beautiful father, friend and Godly husband. You are my smile and I know in this moment, I am truly blessed.
Ultimate fulfilment leaves my body and I tell you that you are taking me to heaven, simply by being you. You join me and we hold each other as we come back from this moment. Tears stream down my face as I hold you, thanking God for this momentÖ thanking him for the precious gift of you.