Was one year from now.Looking back I can see the depth of sin I had induldged myself in.
I cannot look at someone and say 'How did she/he ever do that and still be at peace?'Coz deep within me I know now that I have experienced the same. I try not to point fingers.I try to eradicate the very thoughts that try and come in my mind.If ever i would point fingers at someone that would be first me.
Trying to focus my thoughts on Jesus who was very my nature. He knew every weakness of flesh but was without sin.There is something really powerful in the name Jesus. I wanted to find out for myself the power of the name of Jesus.When I ask something in the name of Jesus and that comes to pass I feel happy and my faith strengthened.
But what happens when I ask and that does not come to pass what happens to my faith. I try to question what's wrong. Either something is wrong with my prayer request or Maybe its just not what God wants. Where do I hear the still voice in my heart speak?God is my refuge and strength ,A very present help in trouble.God just knows my urgency but still no answer.What do I do? Frustration slowly builds up.After sometime I realise that Faith is all about trusting him whatever happens. I can still not see any direct answer but I know I'm in the hands of the Creator and he simply cannot be wrong. I now Praise God who holds answers to my future and who knows the perfect time.He's neither slow nor too fast but just perfect in time.
I'm just gonna trust him and wait for him to show me the way.