“Delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart.” (Ps. 37:4 NIV)
Jim and Brenda, a wonderful older couple in my life, pray daily for the Lord to provide me with the desires of my heart. I’d love a husband and children.
The long-awaited day has come. I walk down the aisle, head high, the bouquet in my hands, feeling beautiful. My heart does a double flip as I see the look of love and pride in his eyes. I reach the front of the church. The atmosphere is perfect.
This is a match made in heaven. During the vows, a piece of dandelion fluff bobs in the shaft of sunlight. Catching it on film, the videographer swears that there is an angel present.
Surely today God’s promise has been fulfilled – desires have been granted.
I’m proud to stand in the limelight of my dear friend … one with whom I’ve shared so many of my own struggles, hopes, and desires over the years.
Today, God has granted my friend the desires of her heart, and angels truly are present and celebrating with us. As the happy couple leave for a tropical island, I take a long, lonely walk along the beach, the sky black with an approaching storm, and yet again scream inwardly to my heavenly Father, “Haven’t I delighted in you enough? What about me?”
Jim and Brenda continue to pray for me each day. “Lord, grant her the desires of her heart as she delights herself in you.”
My days and nights are very busy with many different activities – all good activities, all activities that I’ve sought God’s direction about and all activities which I thoroughly enjoy. Alone.
I take out my journal, and write. Late at night, I return to my writing because of a spark of inspiration gained while luxuriating in a scented hot bubble bath. I decide to meditate on the topic of contentment. That’s when it hits me like a lightning bolt.
I enjoy the single life.
My dear friend, a married woman now, is reveling in her new home, her new husband and her new life. She doesn’t complain about the mortgage or the many adjustments needed with step-children. Her time is no longer her own. Neither are her finances. Even petty things like how she squeezes the toothpaste tube must be done with consideration for others.
I, on the other hand, make plans, and follow through on them. I put something down, and that is where it stays. I do what I want, when I want, how I want, spending what I want, without worrying about others.
“Delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart.” (Ps. 37:4 NIV) I have tried to genuinely delight myself in the Lord, even when it has been a question of gritting my teeth and muttering, “I choose to rejoice in God”. There have been many such times along the way.
Jim and Brenda would still like to see me with a life-partner, and I’m not averse to them praying accordingly. In all the ‘single woman finds a husband’ testimonies, it is at this point that Prince Charming reveals himself as such. However, I’m honestly not bothered now.
What is central isn’t the content of my desires, but rather the object of my delight. That is the Lord. Today, for me, the single life is ‘the good life’. I’m living it to the full, genuinely delighting in the Lord.
The desires of my heart are finally following suit.
Wow!nbJust beautiful Suzanne. I love the way you expressed this powerful truth . How can anyone be discontent when they are in the will of Jesus and walking with him? ! Love you sister in Christ. Keep writing.