John, if you only knew,
Though you were only here for a short time,
You filled my life and your dadís life too,
With more happiness than most get in a lifetime.
You are our special lilí buddy.
And I hope you know
That's something you always will be.
And especially extra special, just to me.
You gave me a purpose,
When I thought I had none.
And sometimes I wonder,
How Iíll go on.
But then your dad will give me,
A hug and gentle kiss.
And I feel I can continue,
Even though I know Iíll miss,
Your smile and warmth,
That always got me through.
Whenever I was sad,
I could always turn to you.
Youíd give me that silly grin,
And brighten my darkest day.
I know you loved me,
Even though you couldnít say.
You got so many people to love you.
And got them to do it so quick.
From family and friends,
To those who cared for you when you were sick.
I have no regrets now,
Except that you wonít be here with me.
But thereís no doubt in my mind,
Heaven is a much better place to be.
I ask sometimes why you were taken from me,
And why my prayers were ignored.
And then something tells me,
Itís not right for me to keep you,
When God needs you more.
John, it was so hard to let you go.
I didn't want you to think I had given up on you,
Letting go was THE HARDEST THING,
That I had EVER had to do.
But you gave me a sign,
That said give me one last try.
And then it was up to me,
To say good-bye.
So knowing we had given you,
Every chance we could give.
We realized you were tired of fighting,
Too tired to live.
So, we put you in Godís hands,
And then there was only one thing left to do,
And that is to say ďGood-bye John David,
Mommy and Daddy love you!Ē
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