Did you know that the word “blah” is actually listed in the dictionary? Webster defines it as a feeling of dullness, boredom, lethargy, likened to a winter’s day. I guess that sums up the way I’ve been feeling lately. I could’nt quite put my finger on what the problem was, just knew that I was’nt my usual “good to go” self.
I have to admit, sometimes the blahs just seem to creep into my life unannounced. I’ll be going along just fine, when all of the sudden it feels like my engine begins to run on 3 cylinders instead of the usual 8.
I’ve come to believe that the blahs are simply characteristic of the human condition and not to be heralded as anything more. I even had a good talk to God about them, but before I could apologize for the way that I felt, He simply hushed my lips, nodded and said, I know.
“For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weakness, but we have one who has been tempted in everyway, just as we are- yet was without sin.” (Hebrews 4:15)
I know the Lord has brought me a long way from where I once was. Before, I would have self- analyzed myself right smack into the diagnosis of having a very serious backslidden condition and that if I was ever going to snap myself out of it, I’d better put it in high gear, crank up my spirituality a few more notches by praying more, fasting more or buying that 16 cassette tape series on “How to be a better Christian.”
Talk about your super-charged, hyper-driven, gotta get it done Christian! When in reality, all that had happened was that I had fallen back into a “works” mentality and that little elusive five letter word known as “Grace” had once again become the name of my favorite Aunt, instead of the needed virtue that would actually carrying me beyond my current dilemma and into the wonderful rest God was calling me to.
What started out as a simple case of the blahs, turned into a major emotional hurdle, one that was of my own making. Just in time, God rescued from the gauntlet of condemnation and guilt that was headed my way. He delivered me, by quieting down my restless spirit and telling me, “Daughter, it’s ok, I am the same yesterday, today and forever” Come and let me take you higher, take you to a height where you have complete confidence and assurance by means of My enabling presence. Come and sit at my feet and let me bring peace to your heart once again by reminding you that my yolk is easy, and my burden is light. Come now and lay your head on my shoulder and let me whisper, “that everything is fine.”
“For he himself is our peace, who has made the two one, and has destroyed the barrier, the dividing wall of hostility, by abolishing in his flesh the law with its commandments and regulation.” (Ephesians 2:14)