Last year was a very challenging year for me. Before I could get over one thing, something else would happen. Before long, it seemed as if everything I believed in, everything I had prayed for, everything I had worked so hard for was about to come crashing down around me. And then it started.
The "it" I'm referring to is harrassment from the enemy. My mind was almost consumed with fear and doubt. I was thinking thoughts like, "What if....", "Well, you know when that happens...", "How do you really know...", "Looks like...." Get my point?
I was afraid.
I was afraid of losing the blessings I once knew. As fear turned in to anger, regret, bitterness, sadness and so on, I felt like I was in a downward spiral of defeat. Thankfully, God came to my rescue. Oh, He was there all the time, but one day He led me to a passage of scripture that helped turn things around.
In Numbers chapters 22 and 23, I found that God had blessed Israel. Though they had a mixed history of obedience and disobedience, God chose to bless them anyway. They were growing in number, defeating their enemies and taking their land. Balak, king of the Moabites, was afraid of them and what they could do to him and his people. So, he hired Baalam, a soothsayer, to curse Godís people. For Balak had heard that whomever Baalam cursed was cursed and whomever he blessed was blessed.
Problem was, each time Baalam was asked to curse God's people, he ended up blessing them. This made Balak, the king, very angry. Baalam asked him how could he curse whom God had not cursed? At one point in their duscussions Baalam told Balak, "Behold I have received commandment to bless: and he (God) hath blessed; and I cannot reverse it."
That made me want to jump up and down. God was saying that the enemy cannot reverse Godís blessing on my life. I hadn't really thought about it that way. The enemy was bluffing me. He was attempting to manipulate circumstances to make it appear as if I was losing blessings I once knew. I had to learn that circumstances, though they may look bad, always work out for my good. If I allow them to, they will.
Things and seasons change. Adversity has always pushed me further into God's presence for comfort and guidance. In fact, every major shake-up in my life has preceeded a major blessing. But moving from the familiar into the unfamiliar was, and is, a bit scary.
So, once I knew what I was dealing with, I knew how to react. When those thoughts and questions would come, I started confessing the word of God over my life. Sometimes I would just drop everything, run into the living room and shout, ďThe Lord has blessed me and you cannot reverse it!Ē "You cannot go beyond the commandment of the Lord to do less or more!" One particular day I felt compelled to confess, "It won't work!" over and over again. I don't know what weapon the enemy was forming against me that day, but I am assured that it did not prosper.
I continued to confess that scripture about being blessed every day, sometimes many times a day. (I still say it.) I said it until it got way down in my spirit and nothing the devil threw at me scared me anymore. I said it until my appetite came back and I could sleep good at night. I said it until I had the courage to make some much needed changes in my life. I said it until the peace of God wrapped around me like a warm blanket.
Now, God deals with each of us in a very personal way. The word He gives you will probably be different from the word He gives me. He gives us a specific word for specific situations in our lives. Meditation and confession of that word is key to victory. Focusing on how things look is key to defeat. So, the next time the enemy tries to bluff you (and me) into believing he can steal our joy, peace, money, health, marriage, children, or anything God has blessed us with, let's put him in reverse by telling him what God has told us. Let's welcome changing and challenging times and allow them to urge us further into God's will.
For God has blessed us and the enemy cannot reverse it.