The year 2005 came in with such hope and promise. My ministry in pastoral care and spiritual guidance seem to go unopposed by anyone or anything. This was my earnest desire being fulfilled.
But now as I pen this article I must say that I am experiencing disappointment and my flesh is becoming weary of well doing. I find myself wondering if I need to give up my work in the Christian arena and return to the secular world that I so willing left behind in 2003. This sentiment is from one who spends a lot of time encouraging others, reminding them daily of God’s promises. Since March 2005 I have been plagued with health and financial woes. As I get over one issue another arises to attack.
In times like this I am thankful for the gift of contemplation and grateful for me ability to pray and so I’ve turned to the only source I trust for comfort and hope, the BIBLE [God’s word]. I have taken the scriptures that comfort me most at this time and made them my daily prayers [paraphrasing as I go along] until “in HIS time, HE makes all things beautiful.”
In the morning I pray John 14:1 “I will not let my heart be troubled, for I believe in God and I believe also in Jesus the Christ”. With this prayer on my lips I am able to continue my journey through the situations that arise, while at the same time provide encouragement to others that need it. As the day progresses and I sense all of my resources slipping away I turn to 1st Peter 1:6-7 and I pray “In this present time I greatly rejoice, though now for a little while I may have to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. I know these have come so that my faith will be of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire, that I may be prove genuine in my praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed”. At the end of the day when still there seems no respite, I hold on to Psalm 138:7 and I pray “though I walk in the midst of trouble, you will preserve my life for you stretch out your hand against the anger of my foes and with your right hand you save me.”
These are all of God’s promises to me on which I stand. As my journey continues and I see changes come about my prayer will reflect that too, but until then, I will remember the David’s confident prayer in Psalm 27 “I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. I will wait for the LORD; I will be strong and take heart.”
I know some of how you feel and what Michael said is wonderful advice and it works. Praise God even when you don't want to or feel like it and you'll find relief in your time of trouble. I've done it and it works. You are in my prayers also. God bless and I care.
Dear Sister, If I may... this is the time to hang tough. We can give thanks IN everything for this is the will of God IN Christ Jesus for us (but we do not give thanks FOR everything). With thanksgiving, we can enter into His gates. Follow-on with praise and you will enter His courts. IN God's presence, everything is going to be alright; there will be fullness of joy.