Facing the change, seeing the turn
Knowing You're setting the path I must sojourn
Heart is grieving at what I must leave.
Claiming the place You are taking me, yet to conceive
Mourning the separations that I know must be.
Never thought or believed this day I would see
A peace within, yet a sadness as well
Knowing the time has come for us to dispel.
Ascertaining that with You I will remain
Yet these separations cause my heart pain.
But they're healthy and right
Not out of malice or spite.
So off and on I weep at loss
But know for You we all have a cost.
Hope and grief seem to coincide
Existing within this heart side by side.
Hope for the future, grief for the past
Knowing I have grown to where You wanted me
Never conceiving all I endured brought me to the woman I see.
Feeling the season has completed its course
Sensing this 'boat' will travel to another shore.
The future holds new unseen things
Yet my heart is excited as to all You will bring
Past and future melding as one into present
Even though my heart at times still laments
My flesh balks, as my Spirit sprints.
Praying each step I take are in Your footprints
Knowing my life is completely in Your hands
On no other rock can I ever stand
Sonia, I was touched with this poem. I feel I have been right where you are in it. The Lord showed me once that sometimes we have to lose a hand sometimes, or an eye--but guess what Jesus is a healer--what we loose or get rid of in the physical realm, which are un-necessary or bad for us..Jesus restores with spiritual treasures necessary and other things which are good for us. I really liked the writing of your poem. God bless ya,