It always took me by surprise
How easy it was to share my lies
I would open my mouth
And a tale would unfold
Purchasing pity
For the stories I told
Teachers, Pastors, Psychiatrists
Drugs and habits and the alternatives
Never getting better
Never finding peace
Holes in my stories;
Voices never ceased
Wanna' be rescued; be set free
From the voices and thoughts inside of me
Initially it was all real -
The pain, the torment, the hidden ordeal -
Stumbling through life
As I clawed through the years
And buried myself
Within my tears
The attention I gained from the state I was in
Was enough to fuel a brand new sin
I would sit in the halls
And make myself cry
And people would pass
Wondering why
Wanna' be rescued; be set free
From the voices and thoughts inside of me
I knew what to say; I knew what to do
I knew which people that I could use
I created a front
Control was my friend
As I played a game
That would not end
I played a game of lies and deceit
I became a fraud and learned to cheat
I wanted to be noticed
No matter what the cost
Sympathy and compassion
For I was so lost
Wanna' be rescued; be set free
From the voices and thoughts inside of me
The lies took hold - took control
And soon I was only playing a role
My life was not real
Loosing me inside
Chasing a truth
Willing to hide
Fact and fiction combined in force
And took control in its own course
Confusion now my ally
Depression weighed me down
Truth and reality
Waiting to be found
Wanna' be rescued; be set free
From the voices and thoughts inside of me
The people I found who would listen to me -
To my rantings and ravings of inequality
Would open their hearts
Offer over their views
And tell me my life
Was mine to choose
How was this so when thoughts plagued my mind
And it was tranquility that I could not find?
Hatred and irritation
Rage and fury
Within my heart
Making me surly
Wanna' be rescued; be set free
From the voices and thoughts inside of me
Knowing where to find the key
To the battle that raged inside of me
Could not be conned
And could not be bought
Through a spiteful
And horrible plot
Friends I once had now turned away
For I seemed to push the all at bay
Never knowing
What to do
Running on
From the truth
Wanna' be rescued; be set free
From the voices and thoughts inside of me
I didn't want to hurt them or make them feel bad
It's just that my heart felt lonely and sad
Only trying
To survive
Taking them all
For a ride
And there I sat in my secluded shell
Constantly wondering if this was hell
Alone and empty
Cold and dry
Sadness befalling
Waiting to die
Wanna' be rescued; be set free
From the voices and thoughts inside of me
And all I really had to do
Was find the Word to be true
To turn to God
And what He said
Allow my life
To be led
He whispered His promise to my ear
And told me never again to fear
For the lies I once told
And the things I had done
Were forgiven by Him
When He sent His Son
Wanna' be rescued; be set free
From the voices and thoughts inside of me...
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