14th May, 2005
Yesterday I saw a strange dream. Yes, it was strange. I did not understand it. I tried hard to think over it again and again. Usually I see a dream in which devil tries to trouble me, but vanishes completely when I call upon Christ’s name. I have seen this dream for the last seven years or more.
Yesterday, I saw Jesus lying on a bench in a Church. His position reminded me of the time when He was wrapped in linen and laid in a sepulcher. I saw myself sitting on floor next to him. I looked at His face; it was pale, maybe because of pain or maybe sorrow, but he was alive. My younger brother also stood near His feet. I was singing a hymn. Suddenly He offered me His hand. I held his hand and I felt a hole in His palm. I looked into His eyes. He said nothing to me but His eyes and the hole in His palm kept coming back to me; as if He wanted me to know something.
It was hard for me to know until today morning during my daily Bible reading time. I opened my Bible to see Isaiah 40: 28, which told me that He never gets tired. Then I wondered why did He look so pale? I stepped out of my bedroom to reach the verse on a calendar. And I found my answer there. It was John 14:17-18. I remember for the last few days I tried hard to get close to God. Yesterday I had fasted and I was tired in my body, soul, and spirit. I was heavy laden. And John 14:17 says that He dwelleth in me and shall be in me. Further it says that He will not leave me comfortless; He will come to me.
Yes, the verse was true. Jesus Christ had come to comfort my broken heart. But then why did He look so pale?
I thought over and over, again and again on it. And He spoke to me. He wanted me to keep my heart, my spirit, my thoughts clean and bright, because he dwells in me. Some bad thoughts were residing in me. He wanted me to wipe them off. He offered me His hand not only to touch but also to have a grip over it and hold it forever. Because getting rid of those bad thoughts is not possible for a dust (me) alone. I need Christ in my life.
And here my friends I re-dedicate my life to Christ. Now, I live in me no more, but Jesus lives in me.
All honor, praises, and glory be to Him.
__Hello Joyce, yes, it’s been a while. A little too much sleep, slumber, and folding of the hands to rest have been characteristic of my endeavors to write in the past month. Pray for motivation and discipline so that poverty and scarcity of ideas and encouragement won’t come on me or you. “I’ll Give You No More Pain”
Well Joyce I’m going to do this review differently than previous others, I’m simply going to ask questions about this piece and elaborate on them so you can better grasp my confusion.
*Why is this piece so short? “I tried hard to think over it again and again”; “I have seen this dream for the last seven years or more.” These phrases suggest to me that you have had much time to really meditate over this dream and draw meaning from it and yet 42 sentences of thought are all you have to offer.
**Why do you not reread your work before posting? Fairly self-explanatory: “Usually I see a dream in which devil tries to trouble me”; “It was hard for me to know until today morning during my daily Bible reading time”; “Because getting rid of those bad thoughts is not possible for a dust (me) alone.” Like I said in "MY COVERSATION WITH GOD" when you write to explain you must be clear in your communication so as not to cause misunderstanding.
***Why ‘did’ Jesus look so pale? I didn’t feel like you answered your own question. I get a sense of the answer when you say that bad thoughts were residing in you along with Christ so Jesus could not be at peace in you. So then how does the comment from Isaiah 40:28 relate to this? Did Jesus’ paleness mean that he was tired in a physical sense or in an emotional sense?
__Ultimately the main thing I’m stressing in my questioning is why do you give such little explanation? Your point is clear: to keep your living temple clean you need to have Jesus Christ in you—alive and well. However I spent most of my time trying to make sense of the elements in the dream, then your conclusions about it from those scriptures as opposed to the point you wanted to make. Perhaps with more explanation/elaboration/emotion then I would have been able to follow along better. Good effort though, and a very appropriate interpretation of your dream. May God continue to poor them out to you as you continue to share them with fellow believers.