Lately I have had similar conversations with many women. There have been several of us who have or are going through some type of tumult that has affected our very Spirit. There have been those who have hurt us, financial challenges, and family crisis among the many other obstacles that life brings.
Right now, I ask each of you to consider your life and all of the things the Lord has allowed to take place. Consider the most hurtful times of your past; those moments when you thought you just couldn't make it. That day when you cried out, enough!
Well here you are, still alive and still in Christ! The trial didn't kill you, though it might have been painful, it brought strength in the end. You made it through.
I have found the things I have endured in life. The abuse, the pains, the hard places, loneliness, setbacks, everything has in some way affected the purpose which the Lord has set aside for me. Even when I have chosen the unrighteous thing to do, the Lord took my errors and turned them into lessons of His mercy towards me. He showed me the intense love He has for me. The Lord let me know that no matter how far I think I am away from Him, He never left my side. Nothing separates me from His love, which is in Christ Jesus.
I have been that prodigal son, the infirmed woman, the liar as well as the lost. So many things I have been but the Lord remained faithful. His mercies are renewed every day and His compassions fail not.
Family and friends have turned me away. I have been scorned and laughed at by loved ones because of my choice to press in the Lord. I have spent what seemed to be my worst times in life alone without the support or comfort of people. But the Lord said, I am with you always and I will never leave or forsake you.
As did the Apostle Paul, I found that in my weakness, the Lord is made strong! I have found that the things God allowed me to experience have proven to be a testimony to others who are now going through similar tests and trials. Whether my state is due to my own trespasses or by the hand of the enemy, I understand there is purpose in all of my pains. My times are in His hands. The Word of the Lord tells us we glory in our afflictions also; knowing tribulation worketh patience (I learn to value of waiting on God's timing). And patience, experience (God's Word is proved true in my life) and experience, hope (the desire of some good with expectation of receiving it). And hope maketh not ashamed (In nothing I shall be ashamed but that with all boldness, as always, so now also Christ shall be magnified in my body, whether it be by life, or by death Phil. 1:20). See Romans 5:3-4