Do you still remember that very special moment when you made a sacred promise?
“For better or for worse, for poorer or richer, I will love you forever and ever..”
You’re so beautiful with your white, flowing robe and crystal veil like an angel whose heart shines through, you’re smile as bright as the stars, your eyes glistening as you fixed your gaze solely upon me, whispering tenderly, “You are my one and only true love .”
Your joy is my joy. I want to see you smile as you cling to your love for me, who will forever be true to you.
But it didn’t take long before you’ve forgotten that vow you made. It hurts me so to see you hurting, weary, confused. Your mind’s cluttered with so many distracting thoughts. You even forgotten to say “Good Morning” before you left for work today. It’s been many nights now that you’re so exhausted to even bother to talk to me.
You didn’t hear me when I called you this morning before you left for work. I said, “I love you. Take care. I will be waiting for you when you come back.” You left dragging your feet murmuring, “Oh Lord! Another day!”
You ignored me when I warned you, “ Be careful on your journey. Look at the stop signs and the go signs. Look to your left and to your right.” I know how near-sighted you can be. It grieved my heart when you passed the red light anyway, and then you got so upset when you got that $350 ticket. At least you didn’t have an accident.
I saw the worried look in your face and the uneasy way you waited for your teenage daughter from her first date. It hurts me to see you cried when you can’t stand seeing your son battling his severe allergies and asthma. You also felt so guilty when you can’t be there always for your mother battling Alzheimer’s. You tried to please everyone, then you beat yourself up with overindulgence to junk foods when you’re upset. You’ve been unfaithful to me, but you can not hide from me. But I remain faithful to you. See, I didn’t leave you? I’ll forever be here for you.
I heard you when you screamed , “I’m a mess ! This is too much! I can’t take it anymore!” I knocked at your door and said, “I’m here for you. I’m here to help.”
But you didn’t hear me. You’re too pre-occupied with your problems.
Finally, at your most vulnerable moments, you remember how significant I am in your life. At last, you opened the door to your heart for me again and let me in.
I heard the sweetest words, your voice a music to my ears. “I’m so sorry. Please forgive me for ignoring you for so long. I am nothing without you.”
I lifted you up, carried you in my arms and saw your pain. I am glad that you came back to me knowing that you know how much I love you. Nothing and no one can separate us, since you made that sacred vow. For my grace is made perfect in your weaknesses. Just trust ME.
Oh... the tears... He is so very faithful... Faithful and True. It is as though you have sat in a corner of the room and watched my life (thus far) pass before your very eyes. But I know in my heart that we must all go through it. You couldn't have sat in that corner at all. Amazing... isn't He? Oh, how Faithful and how glorious is the Lord of Lords and the Lord of my life! Thank you for so obediently sharing the heart of God.
Gloria, What a wonderful perspective on our relationship with Jesus! It becomes 'real' and very personal. Thank you for writing this - I will think back to this poem many times when I reach out to our Lord!
Bless you. Peggy