Itís hard to believe that a year has gone by.
For sometimes I still just break down and cry.
I miss you so much but I couldnít wish you back.
Your suffering had reached the highest level, in fact.
We did so much together and sometimes I still feel lost.
I have to learn to live without you, no matter what the cost.
I wish that we had started to church while you were here.
But that wasnít meant to happen, that much seems very clear.
My church family is a blessing; they are always there for me.
They always give encouragement and help me grow spiritually.
Theyíve helped me find a purpose in life, when I felt that I had none.
And they reminded me that in my life God needs to be Number One.
My life will never again be the same; no one can take your place.
And I only have a picture to look at when I want to see your face.
You always said that youíd go first, because of the difference in age.
Sometimes I wish we had gone together; it would have been easier that way.
God must have had a purpose for leaving me behind.
But I will never forget you; you are always on my mind.
Riding motorcycle alone is not much fun; but I donít want to sell the bikes.
So many things we enjoyed doing together; we had so many common likes.
Itís a little easier to talk about you now; so people think Iím all right.
No one but God knows whatís in my heart and how many times Iíve cried.
But since you are up there with God, then you must also know.
That the love I have for you is still strong and I still miss you so.
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Carol,I can't even imagine what it would be like to lose my husband, as we too share so many memories, but I am so proud of you for allowing God to use your loss to bring you to us. You have been such a blessing.