Do you hear me when I cry out in despair?
Sometimes I can’t feel your presence there.
I’m broken again; my heart’s torn in two,
I can only blame myself, but I want to blame you.
Why must I be surrounded with anger & pain?
With all these trials in life, what will I gain?
This road I walk continues to twist & turn,
And to reach Heaven’s gates I desperately yearn.
At the end of each day I fall to my knees
Confessing how much of your love I do need.
Please don’t let me walk here alone,
Guide me along this path until I reach home.
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Voices call out to me each day;
Deceiving whispers which pull me astray.
I know in my heart this world has nothing for me,
But this keeps becoming harder to see.
Clear my mind, cleanse my heart,
Put me back together when I’ve fallen apart.
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Once again I’ve fallen from you.
I’ve broken your heart & dismissed you.
Easily I’m distracted by unfulfilling wants,
And left disappointed & alone in the dark.
My selfish desires cloud my mind,
And around in circles my head now wind.
Why do I search for fulfillment in this empty world,
When in my heart, I know there is only you?
Again and again I stumble and fall,
Now on my knees I crawl.
In pieces I lie on the sands of the shore,
Waiting and wanting to be restored.
I long to be healed and cured once and for all,
To be strong in my faith and to stand tall.
I am continuously reminded how impossible this is to do,
To stand firm without you.
In my failures, I can see you standing there,
Waiting for me to give you all my cares.
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There are days when I want to give up.
Days when I think I can no longer run.
Times come when it feels like I am alone.
Left to wander looking for home.
I search for a peace, but find only hurt.
Again and again I wonder where you are.
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