But For All That I Am, I Am Blessed
By Deborah Anderson
Many of us have suffered numerous tragedies in our lives. Some of us are walking through the fire right now.
But I came to tell you something. God has not abandoned us. He isnít punishing us. We are blessed.
Perhaps you are thinking, whatÖthis woman is crazy! I know what her problem is. Her elevator doesnít go to the top floor. All her marbles have fallen out of the bag. When they were passing out brains, she thought they said Ďtrainsí and she missed hers.
I wouldnít blame you for saying all of the above comments. I didnít know myself until recently how blessed Iíve been. Thatís why I wanted to share this with you. Turn and look behind you to see what has been in front of you. I know people say we should never look back, but read on, and youíll see what I mean.
I watched my father die a slow, tortuous death from liver disease when I was young, but I had a father. He loved me. He laughed with me. He cried with me. I learned what real strength was because of him. Shedding tears is not a sign of weakness from any man. It takes a courageous man to be able to cry and share his true feelings. My dad was this type of man. Some will never know their fathers at all. I was fortunate to have known mine. For this, I am blessed.
I suffered years of abuse from a man in my past, but I survived. God saw me as someone valuable, and He redeemed me. He decided He would make me a vessel fit for His use. Because of Him, and only Him, I am here. Because I lived to tell you this, I am blessed.
I married a godly man and later gave birth to a beautiful little girl. She died when she was only two days old, but I had a child. I remember her tiny life moving inside of me. It was one of the most amazing things Iíve ever known. There are no words to describe the feelings when your child first moves in your womb. Many women never get to carry a child at all. Therefore, I am blessed.
I lost other children, too. I never carried them full-term, but because of eternal life in Jesus, I have a family. I often imagine what my children might look like. I read stories people write about their children and hear others talk of their own. I picture mine playing together, in beautiful fields of flowers as far as the eye can see. I envision them as they walk the streets of gold beside the Lord, while the glory of His radiance dances off their faces. What an honor it is to have my children raised by the Lord. I never have to worry for their safety. I never have to dry their eyes of tears. Again, I am blessed.
My brother died in my arms a few years ago, but Iím thankful I had a brother. He was one of my dearest friends. He had an amazing spirit of laughter. He gave his life to the Lord before he passed. You could feel the presence of God fill the room before the angels carried him home. It was as though a white glory cloud overshadowed him as he took his last breath. God didnít have to make a grand entrance, but He did. It was His way of letting me know that He came for my brother as one of His own. My brother, father, and children await me in Heaven. Because of this, I am blessed.
These are only a few of the things I have been through in my life. I know many of you have been through tremendous heartache, too. Be encouraged. I didnít see my blessings for a long time. I had to reflect through tears to catch a glimpse of them. Look back at where youíve been and search for your nugget of gold. When you find it, hold fast to it with all your might, just as God has held you in all things. Glean the good from the bad. In doing so, maybe you, too, can say, ďI am blessed.Ē
Thank you Deborah for showing us how blessed we are even when we think we are facing life's tribulations. You are so full of courage and love in the Lord that He is using you to bless others and renew the faith.
Deb, thank you for sharing that there is hope in the midst of devastation. It's quite evident that God has entrusted you to share in His sufferings over the devastation that the curse of sin has wrought in our world, and to give you such wonderful assurance that though death has taken so much from you, it has not had the last word. You shall indeed see those loved ones again and forever enjoy them with Jesus in eternity future.