I remember as a child going to the movies, and getting a box of hot popcorn to eat while I watched.... and carrying that box so carefully so as not to spill even one kernel...I would sit with that box warming my hands, and not let myself eat even one piece until the movie started, for it had to last until the last credits faded from the screen.
It was such delicious torture to hold that box and feel its warmth, to smell that smell only movie popcorn has, and yet wait to take that first bite. I sat through the previews, and then through the newsreel, and finally through the cartoons.... until at last the feature presentation came on, and I could take that first wonderful bite, and oh my, it had been worth the entire wait!
I would eat the popcorn one kernel at a time, it would last longer that way...and it was a delicate balance to time the eating to last as long as the movie, and if I managed it, it just made my day.
I think of my life in the time before I met you.like sitting in the theater holding the popcorn box.... and just waiting for that time that I hoped and dreamed would come true. I had waited through the previews.... all those things I'd tried to do and failed...those things I used to fill up my life, in the end I knew they just would not do.
I suffered through the newsreel, like looking back at my life, and being so sorrowful at the mistakes that I had made, the hurts I had inflicted and those I took.... and finally I asked Jesus to come into my heart with His forgiveness and healing touch. Jesus ended the newsreel, saying that part of your life is done, its ended and I've put it away...and now it is time to move on and relearn the joy that can fill your day.
So then came the cartoons...a time to relearn joy...to laugh again and to regain hope.... I learned to look forward, to dare to dream of things that just might be...and now when I look back, I see that Jesus had all along been preparing me.
And when I was ready, and His timing was just right, it was like the most wonderful movie starting anew, and now the popcorn that I held with its promise of warmth and delight, was all ready to be shared with.... who?
Oh, and this was the most wonderful surprise of all, to find a love so incredible, so true...Jesus brought you into my life, to share that popcorn with me...the long wait had been worth it, for now I could share it with you!
Now each day is like going to a brand new movie, and now we take the large box of popcorn to share.... and we no longer have to wait, to ration it out, to put it off.... we can savor our delicious life every minute we are there.
The movie's not the important thing, or even the popcorn shared between us two.... it is that every day, no matter what may come, I get to share it all with you!
Oh, Trish! I love it! I love it! So visual! This is so, so sweet! And the Lord must be so delighted in you! (Don't tell anyone I said this... :::wink::: but I just never could eat one piece of popcorn at a time... probably because I had so many brothers and sisters that I was forced to share with. "Gobble while you can or miss out.")